AKU,DIA dan KAMU

2010 last posting

2010-12-31T01:06:00.008+08:00

Hello there...Yes this blog has been dump like almost ages....or in fact about 7 mths..but then again...i dont wish to leave it hanging in the air...and people no longer read this piece of journal that i ones keep it alive with full of hope....

2010 brings me to a year that is full of ups and down....i passed out of the Police Academy which brings me to become a full-pledge Police Officer for at least 1year 10mths...and then im back to reality..till then 7 more mths to ORD....

2010 also brings friendships to greater heights..Yes.there were misunderstanding and misjudged of friendships but now i really know who are the ones who always stood by my side and never left and the ones who are "all talk of being loyal and stuff..''but when told to prove a point..simply walk away without any actions...and enough is enough..i shall not bother anymore....its not worth a cent...nevertheless thanks for being for of my journey in life...

Not forgetting before the closer of 2010,i was reunited with my Primary School mates...yes..the peeps from cbps/dqps.....its been 10 years since i last saw each and everyone of them...some are already married with kids..gosh..and i cant remember most of them initially but thanks to fb that we manage to pull the re-union together..and i cant wait for the next re-union..this time round more peeps will come to grace the event...

Anyway my 2011 New Year Resolutions

1)To keep fit and pass my IPPT....so gonna train up...starting from today...

2)To be back at IMH,as a nurse...and hopefully enjoy the things that i do there..

3)Lastly to provide a better financial income for my family and keep the family together..i promise to be a good son..and hopefully get a life partner...

2011....Please be good to me...

2010-05-21T00:51:00.003+08:00

PEOPLE...i have move to Tumblr....follow me on..www.caughtinamiddle.tumblr.com

However...i wont be closing this blog...will update when the time is right..c ya!

Boring last afternoon

2010-04-06T01:03:00.005+08:00

My mind is kinda in a mess right now..i told myself never ever bring work at home but in fact it actually did....like seriously i kinda hate my job scope....in short serving this stupid shit that every Singaporean guys have to do....However a friend said to me...Fuck-care..its not even my rice bowl and you never choose to come here in d first place....i'l try to believe in that..

I felt my usual low self esteem today...(wait...it should be like most of the time)....i felt overshadow by a friend who is definately stronger then me.....in handling crisis....i panic...i dont dare to explore.......nor do i have the ability to think fast...and today i made a senior to loss its record of..."traced"..if you guys know what that means...but then again....why super on????my bad....im responsible for that....and i hate when people gave me the look of like..."you again"....actually what do you expect..different people have different ways of learning or adapting..im just a junior after all.....which makes me think that i cant wait for the next intake to ORD...dont get me wrong....any intake is the next to go means im one step closer to ORD.....in which im already serve 6 months of NS...do i wanna countdown to ORD????not yet for sure....its still a long way to go..or il be slowing now on this fucking journey...or i should say battle....!!!!!!

Anyway..am thinking of changing my blogskin...am reaching my two years aniversary of using this Blogspot....why does it called "strawberrynirvana"?read my past post and you may have the answer...BUT..wait...do people read my blog????

Friendship is the soul's heaven

2010-03-29T00:23:00.004+08:00

I kinda have the urge to blog...but my mind is kinda blank for now...its way past my bed time...but im on afternoon shift tomorrow..so i think it should be fine...Anyway was doing my work just now and it suddenly dawns me that my good friends are all overseas which means i wont be seeing them for the next 10 days....with them gone,i wont have much plans or worse no plans at all....haha...Actually i can feel their absences already...coz usually my off days will be plan ahead...thats shows how much i cant live without them...i have heard the phrase.."Friends are part of life journey"....its depends on how u actually look at the phrase...it could be..Friends are just a passer by in your life journey...in which you will meet at every point in your life....OR simply Friends that stays with you throughout your life journey...I always believe in my 2nd part of the phrase mention..and im gladly dare to say that these guys will stay with me throughout my life journey..coz they have made a big impact in my life.....

If a man does not make new acquaintances as he passes through life, he will soon find himself alone. A man should keep his friendships in constant repair.

Anyway......I opened my FRIENDSTER account after so long...and manage to see the old photos with brings back lots of good memories..speaking of which...there is another group of people whom i really wanna address.....its nothing personal but yeah...i really miss the period where we spend time together...making promise after promises to stick together eventhough we each had our own commitments......im sure you yourself agreed to it that we are not close like we used to do.. blame no one but ourselves...for not being able to keep up with the friendship...its really a waste...agree???...but if there a chance for us....and i meant JUST US..to just one day hang out and talk without feeling any akwardness...i'll be gladly to....

SITUATION REPORT FROM SC RAMLAN

2010-03-16T20:29:00.012+08:00

Gosh..its beens a while since i blogged....Been felling quite shag of lately..and The situations do get out of hands at times............its like dragging myself to work counting down to the end of shift...and the worst thing is that DOR have just been completed...and thats gona be my playground for the next god knows when..anyway...i'll just hope that May or June will fly by faster...coz it means i'll have my basic course....and hopefully i get to go on ground....

Anyway i have been putting on weight since i Post-out last Jan...period...my tummy is getting bigger then i expected..gonna work hard during my off day....and hopefully secure a silver in my next IPPT this August...or else..i can say goodbye to my cpl rank..be my personal trainer anyone??

Well another thing that upsets me this week... is that im really sad that i lost my hp. n76...which stored all my beautiful pictures and smses saved...gosh that phone really gives me strength...i really have fond memories of it..way back when i was really down on my lowest point at one time...and the encouragement that was given by friends and people around me....were all saved through the smses...can i declare how much thankful i am for that...gosh i kept loosing stuff that have sentimental value to me..when shall it stop..???can someone enlighten me???

On a lighter note...i shall get a new hp soon..i swear...still thinking to get the Nokia n97 mini or the I-Phone since sister has been bugging me to get one...hmm..any recomendation guys...??

Anyway... I returned back to ITE last weekend since graduating last year..and it give me chills just when i entered the lift coz it really gave me the fond memories of rushing to the lift just to reach in time for classes..Guess for what purpose for the returned???Its the 1st ever Advance Ryla held in S'pore organised by the Interact Club...its way cool coz i was the commander of the event being the so-called mentor..when i was the particapant a year ago..plus miting with new friends and fellow deligates from M'sia..and my fellow Interactors from my batch and the lecturers do gave me fond memories how they push us to become good leaders...they are really a cool bunch of people considering we started this journey together...it was a really enjoyable camp..though the highlight of the camp were postpone due to the rain...never the less,it did not dampered our spirits.. the last minute plan B work out really well.....thanks to the commanders....AND...AND....what i enjoy the most was staying at the ITE Hostel....its really an eye operner for me coz i never lived nor knew the exert location of the hostel...its super big...and comfie that i wish i could stay there longer...but too bad i had to work the next day.hahaha...Anyway will be back in school this May for the interact orentation camp....and hopefully no more persuation from the rotaracts to be part of e-rotaractors....

Alright for now...need to get bacK to sleep...i see u guys soon..hahaha..but i do really wonder..do people EVER read my blog NOW????

Ikhlas Tapi Jauh

2010-02-26T21:38:00.004+08:00

Ok...dont ask me why i choose to blog today....im bored..and im kinda wanna stay awake the whole evening...its really a bitch these days...my INSOMIA came back...gosh...why do it have to come back when my job scope requires me to stay 100% concentration...gosh and the boo-boo i made yesterday...was really entirely my fault...i did not have enough sleep the day before and i manage to like slept the last hour..(or did i not?)and when my brains were really tired at the point of time,my cognitive went super slow that i cant think.....i really deserved the scolding...and now..i hope i can really make up to it...and i dont really want the akward stare....nor do i hope to pair up with u till u ord...tomorrow is my 1st afternoon shift..and can really sleep a little longer...I hope...Really hate the INSOMIA...i remembered vividly the last time i had that during my 2.1 nursing days...only to reprimanded by my ex-lecturer...talking about NURSING...i really miss the nursing line...i really hope to continue my career which is left half-way through...I'M A NURSE NO MATTER WHAT!

Anyway....i really cant wait to spent my money on the things that i really want and have been eyeing all these while...i need a new laptop...for me only....and i need to asked Hafiz aka bear to guid me along in the applications...yup..IT is really an important tool in life...Next i wana get an I-pod touch....i know everyone seems to have that...but its never too late right...A brand new Handphone seems cool..but if i have the laptop and I-pod touch..i guess getting a handphone isnt necessary...A brand new spects will also be on my list...ANYONE WILLING TO SPONSER ME....?(especially Cougars..hehehe)

Recently am attracted to the song-''IKHLAS TAPI JAUH"....the cover that sang by V.E...ost Cinta...it has a meaning to it..adapted from its movie..

"Kadang-Kadang orang yang paling kita sayanglah,yang paling susah untuk disayangi..."

''Bukan senang nak dapat teman hidup yang sanggup terima buruk baik kita...sanggup berkorban untuk kita,sanggup hidup bersama sampai ke akhir hayat...''

One word to describe.."SWEET"

LIFE

2010-02-19T21:11:00.003+08:00

I felt like blogging a couple of weeks ago...perhaps im having thoughts that might eventually killed me if its stays any longer....but the moment i started on this page...i started to crack my brains out on what to write...ok...my mind kinda shut down for now..

Life its seem a bit of a rush..that i almost could not catch my breath to enjoy its nature...my life revolves working my ass off on stuff which i dont really enjoy doing...is my life really a heck of a failure.....is it predestined ???? All i prayed now is to go ground as soon as possible...thats where i should belong...Countdown to ORD????????...ok!!!its a long way to go...

Anyway..i have been missing out in lots of stuff..Friends????.....hahaha...i dont really have time to catch up...only the dearest ones...which brings me back to my days in TRACOM.....(minus the food at mess)i really miss those time where we were all one..doing the numberous push-ups and PTs..jokes,fun and laughter...always wanting to be the best squad in everything..i really miss being the squad that is the center of attractions for having the best drills being the drill demo...kudos..especially to my best of the best lots....(Tk,Fred,Arul,Andy,Zul,Jesper,Jason,Zhi liang and Andrew).....I really wanna thank you guys for the support...and im really excited to mitting with u guys soon...and our next J.B trip...trust me...the next time we mit,our hair wont be "mangkok" anymore.....

OK...il blog again...next month and hopefully i can really recall on what i would really want to write about..till then...

hello 2010

2009-12-30T21:18:00.002+08:00

Hei people..2009 is coming to an end...and im sure i wont blog much either....it doesnt serve any purpose to me anyway.....In conclusion...first 3 mths was indeed the best ....i remembered having the time of my life doing my last semester of nursing...after that..it has gone downhill......and i hate every moment of it...

Resolutions of 2010....its simple....Hope NS will be smooth-sailing..less of a hic-ups...i literally wana get my life back on track...

So 2010....MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!

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2009-10-24T12:44:00.002+08:00

PEOPLE.....I WONT BLOG AS OFTEN ANYMORE....TAKE CARE PEOPLE

LATE.....

2009-09-30T17:52:00.002+08:00

Hello there..its been a while since i updated my blog...first and formost...i wanna which all my friends a SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI......yeah..i know,its kinda late...but its better too late then never.......As im written this,i have officially left work.....which means....i wont be coming back to work as a NURSE in IMH....yup....im off for my NS this Tuesday at the Police Academy....haix..why do all guys have to go thru NS like 2 years...which to me is like 1000 years of suffering.....can i not go??????

Anyway...life have been pretty much OK these days.....Been hanging out with the guys more often...namely(ninie,dayah,cousin,jamal,bear,saiful,arief,ham).....yeah...i always love whatever outings plan....including the late-night hangouts...karaoke and more.....

Okey......anyway..i really got to go...am meeting Arief and cousin for dinner at hougang green...
and..and..this could be my very last entry.....i see u guys around..enjoy reading...and pray for my journey in life.....

UPDATING

2009-09-09T17:15:00.002+08:00

UPDATING......

Hello there..its been a while since i update...well my life currently have been pretty much the same..but there is just some things that keep bothering me which i do not want to explain why..but just like a flashing speed of light,its already the 3rd week of Ramadhan and Hari Raya is really coming soon...which means i off serving the nation like soon and i meant VERY SOON...!And seriously i have not really prepared both physically and mentally.

Talking about that...i have settle everything with my nursing officer...and im sort of leaving by end of next month....sad to say...i really love this job though i have doubts initially....well the staff really guided and today i really had a chat with my NM and before i ended my shift....he gave me a pack on my shoulder......and i was really quite happy...well i always thought he was quite a strict person....

Anyway i actually have lots to say but unfortunataly i kinda jam on this post...well i see u people soon...

take care...

OPTIONS..

2009-08-19T18:36:00.002+08:00

Hello there..Just to inform u that i will not updating as often yet again due to the stupid lappy..and i cant believe that imwithout a lappy once again...there is so many things that i have yet to settle....gona try to settle things one at a time..but then again time seems to be running out..i need to be financially stable before im off to NS in 1 months plus time...gosh...whats gonna happen..????beats me..i really got no idea...too many things in my mind right now...

Anyway...Work have been much buzy now a days..and i know that my time there is very much numbered....and i really cant wait to enjoy my AL before go...and the best thing is that i end it with my night shift.....

I have been wondering what i shall do for my AL....one thing is confirm is that im going for the Advance Ryla in School...and maybe i'll go overseas...maybe KL????i still do not know..but neverless all options are still open...

Anyway..i got to go...To all my muslims friends..Selamat menjalani ibada puasa yang akan menjelang...

NO ONE...NO ONE...NO ONE...

2009-08-09T00:55:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

Hello there...today is my off day..and i really had a blast..considering i went out yesterday with a couple of friends...and today manage to sleep like a log before meeting ''mom'' in the evening..and yup..its been a long time since i met her and once she saw me,she was like "hei,Ramlan,you grew fatter"..hmm..really??..well i guess so...that bulging ''perot"of mine keeps me self-concious..

Anyway..since i promise to treat her to a big meal after i got my salary ..i decided to bring her to breeks cafe...and we had a long talk and catching up and i always cherish the talk that we had...i remembered the time that she treat me to Sweensens after she got the job in the chemical industry...and now its my turn..haha...

After the Meal,we headed down to a filipino restraunt called 7,1007 ..if im not wrong..its really a good place to chill cause they played acoustic music..with powerful vocals of both english hits and pinoy songs..and i promise mom i'll try to memorise one of the song so i can have a duet with her on our next reunion with the rest...

Anyway..Mom promise me to buy for me the new Ipod 3gS....(like real like that...hmm..lau betul..mesti best..)..and a trip to Sentosa....

Next we took a walk and she then introduce me to her niece..she 21 and just graduated from a university in Phillipines..ok..Mom actually wanted to match-make us....well i cant denied it she's pretty and got the looks...but unfortunately she a spoilt brat whom isnt my type of girl....alamak cannot make it....from the actions i can already see the character...So Mom..so sorry to dissapoint you..its a No..But hope she will be able to learn from you...starting with the hard life in order to get what you want...

As for me,i definately taking my time...like what you said.."Take your time..Love will come naturally''...

I hope...

2009-08-05T18:06:00.002+08:00

I am very tired due to the fact that im having crazy rotating shift for the past 2 weeks..but then again,time really past by really fast...and before i knew it,its already the weekends..Anyway i,hv been a "Reflective" mood onces again...Heres the thing im left with 2 months before i serve the nation.and seriously as i drew closer day by day,i just cant help it but feel the fear of coming to work....Well its because i have not really declare my NS status to my NM & NC..to the fact that im planing to go off after Hari raya...Im starting to adapt my life as a working adult,getting used to the ward environment and especially to the Monotonous life that i got working in a psychiatric Hospital...Well hopefully im able to discuss the issue with my NM or NC..tomorrow...

And i definately looking forward..(or maybe not... )for NS this coming October considering most of my friends have already entered...

RANDOM POSTINGS..IM BACK

2009-07-31T17:40:00.008+08:00

HAPPY NURSES DAY TO ALL DEDICATED NURSES OUT THERE!!!

Firstly...today is a special day for us nurses...coz its Nurses day..a day of recognition for our hard work and sacrifice taking care of the sick...as for me???..taking care of the psychiatric patients..well its definately different celebrating it as a staff then a student coz i definately feel a sense of belonging...

Anyway its been a while since i've blog....my work have since been jam up with tight secdule..plus im too lazy to blog...i have not had a proper rest since god knows when...everytime i have my off day,i definately will go out and break free...i have been able to catch up with my dear friends...hmm...let me recall...

O4(Ninie,Jamal,dayah)
Badots Society(Arief,Cousin,Yiid)
Nad,Han,Shiffa
Roselle,Yen,Alif
CP mates-Especially Wendy & Syahidah Aziz

I definately miss each and everyone of them being mention....(to those i didnt mention,sorry but i miss you people)....My time spent is always with bestie Hamli.....well recently with bear.we always do stuff that we really enjoy...guess wat???its Karaoke..with just the 3 of us...well i will never get sick of karaoke...its a devine therapy to me...hhee...

Anyway i did lots of stuff and different life lessons that i took upon...everything is going to be in a random order..hope u guys dont mind...

AN UNEXPECTED MEETING

I meet up with fellow ex-classmates from secondary school and band members recently..i know..i know..i kept telling myself that i dont wish to see them considering how they treated me in the past..yes...they gossip front and back.they spit and make sure people will see u as the wrongful one...i accepted that punishment...but somehow or rather..as the years goes by,i definately miss some of them..and i dont know what made me to say 'YES' to the dinner together with my trumpeta senior..I admit i was very nervous to see them...but eventually...we started to talk about the past and sure yeah....we all move on since....and to think of it..these people are the ones that show you the true meaning of life...the ups and down and i definately thank them for being part of my life..eventhough we werent close as before....i really hope to mit up with u guys often.....

Club MAD -SHESHA

I recently went out with my fellow Club MAd gals from IMH(Hafsah,Syahidah,Munirah,Addila) after our psychiatric programme..it was the first time going out with them...thought it was a last minute planning...it was a really fun day plus with the Cam-whorring..(picts is with Addila)...and thanks to Hafsah i'hv learn blowing the smoke through the bubbles.....cool or what??Anyway our next outing would probably the Karaoke Sessions....lets make it real again this time round..

N76-My lovely Phone

I just got my N76 phone repaired about 3 weeks ago..and im glad that my save msg are still there.....especially my...shhhshhss..u noe,i noe msg....BUT WTF.....i dropped my hp again and i cnt listen to calls from the Handset....i need to use the loud speaker...to repair OR not to repair..cos all my msg will be gone after i send it for repair again..

Anyway....tomorrow is my off day...and i should be going out....hopefully..still in the planning stage..Ok, i wanna take a nap now..i'l try to update as often as possible but no promises...

*pstttss...i bump into katherine from the dietrician department again....she's HOT*

NOT GONNA UPDATE YET

2009-07-15T12:10:00.002+08:00

Hello there...i really got no time to update....will have a proper update real soon..Pray for my journey in life...Till then...take care readers

Remembering .....

2009-06-25T14:06:00.004+08:00

hei there....i just woken up from my sleep....and im super tired...one more nite to go before im off for my sleeping day....(SD)..But i would rather called it my "shopping day"....hmm....but gonna save a few bits and there...not gonna be a spend thrive like some people...but unfortunately my besties aka "The badots" are buzy preparing for their NDP tomorrow and every Saturday....so got to spend my time alone...(care to join me people?)

Yesterday nite was super OK cos i didnt do the shift at my own ward but rather was doing at 75A...acute remand...aka..disturbing patients..including the boy that my batch of friends saw during our clinical attachments...scary...and when everything starts to fall in to places..theres an admission in the middle of the nite...after that it was okey......smooth silent nite..including the frequent dozzing off...

While trying to stay awake...i was looking at my handphone pictures gallary during my ITE times and gosh...i really miss every minutes of it especially my Clinical friends....(How u guys doing..????am glad that majority of us got a job in this line or continuing on in the diploma in nursing...hopefully we could all mit up???)....and also...i was thingking back the days that Both Wendy, Cherry and I did our night shift together..it was the most memorable.....:)

AND...AND....i HAVE WATCH....TRANSFORMER,REVENGE OF THE FALLEN......!!!!on its PREMIER...cool or what????Despite the night shift later on yesterday....i still manage to catch the movie...it was super blast-ic,romancing,comedy....all pack into one....and who could resist Megan Fox and the additional Isabel Lucas......plus all the blasting of the cars or should i say giant robots....and Bumblebee is super cool,chick and funny...definately it was better that the 1st one....so i definately will want to watch it again.....coooool.........okey.....i got to go...i will see u guys aroung with more frequet updates...i hope..!!!!sorry i have to blog about work most of the time..coz my life involves around work all the time...take care people....

"There is magic in the memory of schoolboy friendships; it softens the heart, and even affects the nervous system of those who have no heart."

Be GRATEFUL

2009-06-20T23:59:00.006+08:00

Hello people..its really been a while since i updated...im sure readers have been randomly going into my blog but only to find it not updated....and yes...i do get that comment..not that iam actually thick skin to actually say it...hahaaa....

Life for me these days have been generally much ok...im always getting tired dragging myself to work at times...am sure most of my peers whom just enter the ward will feel the same way too like how i feel...but seeing the smiles of my patients with a simple thank you really makes my day...

Not forgotting....

My Induction programme.....it was a blast..not that the programme was that good or anything but spending time with 8 of my former coursemates from ITE was really a great one...i consider the 8 of us are the special ones....Why do i say that....???coz theres only 8 of us from our JR0704 that Choose to join IMH considering the strong stigma of working in IMH especially when your a fresh graduate from school...FYI,im really feel proud working in IMH coz i get to know the patients very well compared to the ones at the gereral side..they need more special care and attention if you think about it...we got insufficient tools like what we had in the general side but we definately uses ourself as a tool to communicate with patients as well as to treat the patients....and not forgetting Working in a Psyciatric hospital...In a Specialise Forensic Ward....What more Can You Ask For????

Therefore to...Addila,Hafsah,Fatin,Munirah,Syahidah,Siti and Fadillah...I really enjoy spending time with you people and the lepak-ing at the atrium...getting to know more about you gals and the bond that we made was really meaningful considering we never talk to each other during our time in ITE....am looking forward to seeing more of u guys and hopefully we can have outings together as a group...(and a NO No...to Hougang Green again..hehehe).....lets work hard together to remove the stigma about IMH WOODBRIDGE HOSPITAL...Always remember,we are the special ones...I Salute all of Y.O.U!!!!!

Enough about work.....I have actually have alot to say..but its just that somehow or rather i cant really express as much as i thought i could..perhaps its always been my so-called Motto in life which i always practise is to keep my privert life under wraps.....but i guess age have caught up with me....and i know time is really running out...been doing a lot of reflective of later on whats my life gonna be after my NS..THE wonderful friends that i could rely on in times of happy and saddness..(check!)...A Secure Career right after my NS..(check!)...A life parter to spend my life with..(....?????...)....not yet..or??? Well it was just a dissapointment to know ur attach all of a sudden when i thought it was goin to work out eventually...I just have taken a step slower before trying on my next move...blame on my hectic working life...its okey.....ok i better stop before i indulge on too much info...(No question asked people)

Well thats why il try to remind myself....let love comes naturely....let that statement applies to those who's is consistanly searching just of the sake of it...

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Alright..i got to go...am feeling sleepy already..will promise to keep more updates to keep the blog alive...

100TH TRUTH...

2009-06-02T19:20:00.007+08:00

Ok..im kinda bored now..trying to relex after the hard day at work....and im trying to have a variety of posting...too many of nursing posting...dont want my readers to get bored...

A Note abstracted from FACEBOOK.. (sorry if its too wordy)

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Pokka Lemon tea
2. Last phone call: Maurice
3. Last text message: Rajes
4. Last song you listened to: Coba..Faizal tahir
5. Last time you cried: When my Cousin passed away last April...
6. Last meal:Tom Yam soup

HAVE YOU EVER:

7. Been cheated on: of course..way too many!!!
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope!!!!I onli kissed my loved ones....
9. Lost someone special: of course...
10. Been depressed: Always.....
11. Been drunk and threw up: nope.....i was a good drinker...(i dont take such stuff anymore..da taubat)

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Red
13. Black
14. Blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend: Yup..Friends are part of life journey
16. Fallen out of love:Yup.....i hate that part
17. Laughed until you cried:Yup...but its been a long time since i laughed till i cried..
18. Met someone who changed you: Definately..and im truely greatful for that
19. Found out who your true friends were: Of coz!!!(my 04,Bodotz society,ite friends..too many to mention)
20. Found out someone was talking about you:Of coz..due to that,i hv seen your true colours
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: nope...
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: I know each and everyone of them..hmm..except one..a blogger fren
23. How many kids do you want to have:4!!!(2 BOYS..2GIRLS)
24. Do you have any pets: I used to....
25. Do you want to change your name: Nope..this is what my parents gace me and i totally respect that
27. What time did you wake up today: 5.45am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night:Trying to fall asleep!!
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for:A wonderful marrige with beautiful perfect kids and a career..
30. Last time you saw your Mother: This afternoon...
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life:Get rid of the frequnt anxiety..and be someone who is much independent....
32. What are you listening to right now: The irritating sound of the chinese drama
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: NOPe
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: my fequet anxiety..
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook, Blogger Youtube
36. Whats your real name: Ramlan Bin Mohameed Moksin
37. Nicknames: Lan,A-Lan,Jack,Ram
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac sign: Gemini
40. Male or female?:Male...What a question
41. Elementary?: Pre-school? :Masjid Al-Mutaqin
42. Middle School?: Primary School?:Chong Boon Pri(95-99),Da Qiao Pri(00-01)
43. High school/college?: Bishan Park Sec(02-06) ITE CE, Simei(07-09) :
44. Hair colour:Jet black
45. Long or short: Depends
46:Height: 163cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yup..i think so??
48: What do you like about yourself?: im hardworking...and very determine.
49. Piercings: Yup..my nipples..(just kidding)
50. Tattoos: NO WAY!!!
51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery: none(maybe the surgery that will make me taller???)
53. First piercing: never
54. First best friend: Azmi...mychildhood friend
55. First sport you joined:errr..Table Tennis aka Ping Pong
56. First vacation: Malaysia...Melaka i Guess????
57. First birthday gift: Cant Recall
58. First pair of trainers shoe:Cant Recall...
59. Eating: Cant Recall..gosh..im hungry..
60. Drinking:Cant Recall..
61. I'm about to: Wonder..how long this quiz will takes...
62. Listening to: Kong Wah and Mrs Kong arguing..(Red Threat..on ch 5)
63. Waiting on: becoming successful...GIRLFRIEND!!!
64. Want kids?: refer to question 23
65. Get Married?: Of coz...but i need a life partner 1st
66. Career?:A nurse..or a famous Cafe owner..with lots of branches
67. Lips or eyes: Both
68. Hugs or kisses: both
69. Shorter or taller:depends....
70. Older or Younger: Older but younger at heart..(think Aston and Demi)
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romanticly spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both..including nice ASS
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitively loud..????
74. Hook-up or relationship:Relationship..of coz...but i dont mind being hook-up
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant..really..

HAVE YOU REALLY

76. Kissed a stranger: nope and never!!
77. Drank hard liquor: Yup...(TAPI DA TAUBAT..NI SEMUA KEJE BODOH)
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes...TWICE..:(
79. Sex on first date: Nope!!! Saving Sex for marrige.
80. Broken someone's heart: yup...it wasn't intentional..
81. Drop your handphone into the toilet: Yup.d day i was texting Farhan
.82. Been arrested: nope...Hopefully not
83. Turned someone down: Yup...Definately
84. Cried when someone died: Yup
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yup..definately

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

86. Yourself: Depends on the situations
87. Miracles: of course..Miracles do happen!!
88. Love at first sight: Yup..i like that..
89. Heaven: of course..its a place i wanna be when i pass on
90. Santa Claus:BULLSHIT
91. Kiss on the first date: Nope..unless its the right moment..
92. Angels: YUP...i myself an Angel in disguise..
93. Karma: Im not supposed to..but i believe in it..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend at a time: nope
95. Did you sing today?: Yup..everyday..Singing is in my blood
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Yup....
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?:Back in Primary 1 but with my current Brains..so il be clever and enjoy the past moment...
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: The day..we took the BCLS...it was the fasting month and we all went out to Geylang after that..Nice..
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Nope..LOVE is the most wonderful thing..but im afraid of rejection
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Nope...coz i did it in a blog format...

HELLO WEEKENDS!!!

2009-05-30T14:44:00.006+08:00

Currently life is so so hectic that i really wish i could turn back time and enjoy my time to the fullest...well am sure its only a wishful thingking of my part but im gladly to accept it gracefully..never give up...

Second week of work was really alright....its way better then last week....im always into actions..what do i mean???trying to stop patients from turning violence...its something that i enjoy definately.....more to come im sure...

Will be starting my shift next week and guess what..afternoon shift on Sunday...damn..i'll definately going to be lazy for work....and im looking forward for payday!!!!...i have a couple of things plan out....but most importantly,im going to indulge myself with good food and MORE GOOD FOOD....and also my karaoke-ing with my friends...haha..thats my anti-depressants methods..

Okey...enough of work....my blog is definately becoming dull with the working life entries...i'll try to stay away from blogging about working life..if its permits...hehe..my blog needs serious direction i think.....

Anyway...meet up with one of my very good friend in nursing who is also my cp mate Syahidah Aziz yesterday...haha..she came all the way down to AMK and i brought her to my favourite chilling place in AMK...it was definately a very good evening cos we chill for so long while bringing back the past...Well i hope we can always meet up often and im waiting to hear the good news from u.....(that u find a suitable career.....)

Okey..im so tired i'll blog again if i really had the time next week...(currently listening to PCD ''hush hush/i will survive remix)....simply loving it...

My Nursing Cereer have just began..

2009-05-23T17:51:00.004+08:00

Hello people...as i wrote this entry,i have started working as a full time Nurse in IMH...Well its not my initial choice of career to begin with ..but simply i need a job badly before my enlistment to NS...somewhere late this year...So..Passion is definately not the word..

My life will be officially boring from now on..but as per what ''mummy'' says..take this whole journey as a learning experience...learn as much as i can everyday..
And guess what....i posted to ward 74A..a FORENSIC WARD!!!...fellow nurses will know what kind of patients i have....those with great offences and crimes that they could not be charge as they are mentally unsound...so you have cases like....(go figure..)Trying to remember the patients name will be a great challenge..im like..cracking my brains everytime..and one of the most interesting is they call us BABA...which means nurse..so im affectionly known to them as BABA LAN and you wont find me wearing the NHG uniforms coz im required to wear the mufti..(office-wear)its troublesome cos i need to think of what to wear for work everyday..some wards have started wearing the scrubs..i hope my ward will be the next one..

By being posted to this ward, i am actually putting my life on the line...thats why im always praying for my safety...its really challenging..but on the other hand its really boring when you have four corners of the cell wall.... i really wonder if i really have tasted prison life..thats the plus points of working in that ward..and staying awake all the time has been a challenge to me too..

As for my colleague...i really got no comments..perhaps i have just started working....there is a few i can really related too...because being in an all male-ward will sure have egos flying around..and most of them..and i mean..MOST of them look like your typical Seondary School DNT teacher...haha...Hopefully i can like bond with them soon..and my preceptor is actually my godmom..brother-in -law...but we are always in diffrent shift..anyway im so not looking for my night shift..cos i wont be doing in my own ward but in ward 75....just you and the SN...plus i have seen the Nurse Manager..so strict....and my NM..is always strict..so scary...unlike my NC...so nice.by the looks of it..

And also im nervous about the every TCU that im in-charge of...i cant imagine being lost in the different hospitals.. and i have just experience sending patients X-ray...with the accompany by the Cisco guard..

Anyway next week will be my last office hours before i start the Shift...not looking forward to..haix..being in this type of nursing life really puts you on a reflective mode...my colleague have question my plans after NS in i really wanna come back to this hospital after my NS...

I really dont know coz there so many ways to branch out coz i know myself that i have lots of potential in me..which i realise during my days in ITE...Should i stay or should i go???only time will tell...will tell you my plans in due course.....

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2009-05-17T14:17:00.003+08:00

I really had a blast for the past 2 days...returned to school for the Interact (I/C) Orentation Camp..What a way to end my holidays..its quite fun considering being one of the most senior member attending the camp...anyway its my 3rd I/C camp...

OK..I got to admit that it wasnt really as good as the previous but still spending time with the old members talking and remembering about the good old days was really hilarious....specially at night where Zul,me and dayah plus some other members were talking about our 1st year spending at camp..

And...and this might sound silly but i managed to watch ''Slumdog Millionaire'' at the camp after months of wanting to watch it...its was a really good movie...and they celebrate my advance June birthday...(Thats so early)

After the Camp ended..Mrs K asked me a question...
''What do i gain from Interact Club and what does it make change as a person?"

My ans:Interact definately change me a lot by bringing out the best in me especially in my leardership skills and teamwork..and put myself before others...Juniors come 1st...and definately making me mature coz i really never expect myself to expose lots of comunnity work...and it also open up my thoughts and life at the other side of the world...example the brookside project which makes me realise how lucky i am to be living in Singapore....and these memories are worth keeping....and i definately would like to be part of interact in years to come!!!

So next up???The Advance Ryla....will definately be looking forward for that...

Next phase of my life.....will be an adult working world...which im really nervous about it....will start working tomorrow onwards...wish me good luck as i definately need it...

Anyway will sure be buzy...so there will be lack of updates...forgive me for that...
Damn..il definately miss the life that i had...staying at home slacking and playing with Faiq,my cute little nephew...and i will miss the staying up late and walking up late....hehehe..will miss the repeated shows like Ch8-Ah Xue and Suria Ch-Anugerah...

OK..WISH ME LUCK TOMORROW!!!!Hopefully it will be smooth sailing and less of hipcups..Insyaallah

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I Hate this part right here....

2009-05-14T15:52:00.003+08:00

Im rotting at home every other day...not knowing what i should actually do?..im fact the more i stayed at home,im feel so worthless...

And something is bothering me since last week..and i dont dare to say im to my parents,coz i dont really want them to worry much since there's a lot of things happening recently to the family...and its still haunting me sometimes....i just prayed and hopefully everything gonna be alright..

i just hope i can like divert my attention to something else especially when im starting work this Monday...im going to get all my inner strength physically and mentally....and hopefully getting used to the real working life without the holding hands of lecturers....i really have to gallop to get to the water...I hope this will go my way though i know there will be hicups along the way..

Well im really having a Mix Feeling about starting work but i finally will be earning some serious cash..my aim is to save my pay$$$$ before im off to NS in a few months time..

Ok..im kinda really lost of words as what to blog..but hopefully i end my holidays with a bang!!goin for I/C camp tomorrow....Fun is all im looking for...

I got to go..pray hard for me people....especially my health!!!Cant afford to fall sick..

Graduation Day

2009-05-10T01:24:00.014+08:00

Finally im updating after the lack of new updates...Friends have been telling me off for not consistanly updating..sorry guys..its all depending on the mood..

Anyway,finally i graduated officially from ITE..a place that is close to my heart..Coming to ITE isnt my 1st choice but never did i regreted coming here..a place that is full of opportunities.Friends and lecturers have been totally awsome..and come to think of,its better that secondary school.

ITE certainly open up doors for me to reach out to my fullest capabilities and potential..and in a few days time,i will be starting work..and i'll be a Enrolled Nurse..same goes to my peers..

I had my Graduation Ceremony last Wedesday.It wasa blast..coz i really miss my friends and Lecturers after the last attachment that ends last March..

I am glad that i managed to survive this 2 years of hardships...it was definately worthwhile...
and with that i just wanna wish JR0704 all the best..and thanks for the memories....

Mr Tay!!!

Ms Felica Lim!!Thanks for the guidence during my GEP..it was the 1st time giving a speech in front of the thousands of people...an unforgetable experience..

US without Shif and Daphy

Farhan, Me And Mdm Esther Heng

''Next Up Flinders University..lets make it a reality''

My Favourite Lecturer..Mdm Norliza

WeNDY!!!thanks a million!!!

My CP mates...Fatin AND Syahidah

The FUTURE MEDICS

The gerek ones in class-Clubbing kakies

Updating...

2009-05-02T01:00:00.005+08:00

Hello there..its been a while since i updated my blog....do i miss blogging???hell ya..i do....but there is just too many things that happen that is beyond explaination...

Firstly i'l start off something emotional heartfelt to me.....I just loss my dearest cousin after one month of battling in the hospital due to his illness.....and my family is truely affected by his departure...especially my granny.....i dont really wanna say much coz it concern my family...but i know that u are in a better place...insyaAllah..-Semoga roh mu dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan bersama orang-orang yang beriman..Amin....

Ok....anyway how time flies and my blog-"Strawberrynirva.Bs.com"turns One on the the 28 of April...cool...hmmm...am sure many of you have questions on why i gave such a name for my blog...haha..anyway its just a random name from one my favourite smoothies back when i was working in a cafe called MIX....its a combination of apple,banana,mango,strawberry and yogurt...yumm...i miss working there...too bad its already been closed down..-Thats how my name of my blog came about....believing or not???

And also..how time flies and and my 3 months of holidays are ending real soon....am going to be officially graduating soon and i really dont know what to wear.....seriously...and mom told me she might not be free to attend...for goodness sake...why should it be a weekday???
Anyway...will be starting work soon.....on the 18 May.....collected my uniforms and done with my medical check up.....gonna be an adult working person real soon....and gonna earn the serious cash before going for my NS........

Wait a minute??????should Ramlan be going for his NS 1st before starting work????

Thats where im lucky for having a no-pay leave.....and i have to come back and work for them again.....Which Hospital???????........let it be another of my postings...am sure will reveal....

How about my NS????Hmmm..receive my enlistment already....will not reveal too as yet....kinda playing some mind games with one of my closest friend...

Like i said to u....If i suddenly not in contact with u,

it means i might have gone for my NS

and want u to look for me,and therefore miss me..

ok...im done for today updating...will blog about my official graduation from ITE in my next entry....im so tired..currently am crashing at Hamli cribs...yet again...alrite see you readers

LIFE'S UNPREDICTABLE....Treasure them...before it ends

2009-04-07T23:52:00.015+08:00

Hello people...its been a while since i update.....and its offically getting boring doing updates coz life is currently slowing down....and im trying to find myself once again....and definately....im having to internalise myself....finding the joy in me....but thankfully i really have some encouragement to find life by the advantures that i took upon......believe it or not.....

Anyway....my prayers have been answer...alhamdulillah.....and life will soon never be the same again...a new cycle...What is that???...i share keep it a down low....hehehe...

OK...and now for the serious part.....

I just loss a very good friend of mine due to a motor bike accident...its sadden me because we use to work the same shift and always joking around...and i regard us one of the most hard working people around in MIX..U are a friendly young guy who is always there with a smile.....What sadden me the most is that after the sudden closure of MIX,we did not even have a proper goodbye and we lost contact soon after.....and im sure most of us are sadden by your departure....and im sure u are in a beautiful place now....

Thanks for being a good friend..Rest In Peace Dearest PAUL.Though you will be gone forever,you will always be remembered....

Anyway here are some of the stint of events which i did last week......some explosive picts

Yup..i finally found the Henderson Bridge....really!!!its a long way walk and guess what???i sweat like a pig!!!

POOL TIME!!!

Some Cam-whorring....in the toilet of ILUMA mall....From where????hehe..after watching American idol 7 runner-up......David Archuleta....That guy can actually sing so well that im so addicted to his song "A little too notover you"...currently...or for now..

And to my dearest good friend Daphne aka Daffy....Happy 21st birthday...thanks for inviting us to your chalet....Wishing u good luck and success in everything that u do...

And yeah....was at the SYF Judging Band....at the S'pore Conference Hall....seen here with the Alumni..as well as Our conductor and Mrs Seah.....Congrats to BPS Band for retaining the silver award....keep on working hard...gosh..i miss those days..and i miss playing the Trumpet....

And i actually went to the I/C chalet.....and the chalet was super nice....and very impressive...and spending time with the interactor made me proud of myself for having a CCA during my ITE days...and seen here with my I/C in charge... as well as my nursing lecturer...as well as the lecturer who interview me for the nursing course.....Thats for letting me in...Mdm Grace Angel and definately i enjoy going to "our" house back in Phillipines....I will never dissapoint you..

Also...look out for the Advance RYLA....got to make it work...!!!We have to make it a reality..right Maurice AND Farhan??

Ps:If i really hurt you by not turning up or backing out at the last minute..or maybe demand an explaination....just call me straight...do not assume im making up excuses...i had reasons...

Damn life....

2009-03-25T01:08:00.004+08:00

Hello there..its currently another boring day to keep my life going...and i cant imagine how many boring,meaningless life i have to face since the status of unemployed not schooling emerged with the snap of the fingers...damn...like i always said..CAN I TURN BACK THE HANDS OF TIME!!!

Everyday,i kept wonderdering with full of anxiety,how long is my life going to be like this..waiting for something to happen....i really need something extraordinary right now...

Row, row, row your boat
Gently down the stream.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily
Life is but a dream......(so irony)....

I hope the things that i prayed hard will come true...insyaallah...

Its Not gonna be our last!!!!

2009-03-22T13:53:00.005+08:00

Helo ppl...just another great memories to keep this blog alive..worth the save-keeping memories to keep me cure for the syndrome.....Had a outing lunch session with half of the CP mates....together with Mdm Ang.....and her daughter...its a pity that half was only there...but over all i really have a wonderful time....i miss the loads of fun we had during CP........The craping a lot,the tears and all...and seeing them kept me wondering if im gonna see them again coz we all are going to go on our seperate ways.... our own life...our destiny...but im sure fate is gonna bring us all back together.....so LETS NOT MAKE THIS OUR LAST MEETING????We'll keep in touch alright...???

And....And...i really had fun watching Paul BLART:Mall cop with the 3 of u...(Wendy,Fatin,Cherry)its so funny when u all push me to buy the tickets coz none of us could spell Blllaartt..(its a nice movie people....3 out of 5 stars..go watch it)...

To Fatin:hei...am glad that u like my dedication....and i was surprise that u actually managed to found my blog....how did u do that???Whatever it is,i really appreciate it...And u were truely right....we are all the reason why we pull through..we are like the pillars of strength for each other...:)

Anyway....Here are some of the picts we took.....Enjoy!!!!!

Half of us...together with our lecturer...Mdm Ang...Cool..another treat...

Me,Than Dar,Cherry,Zasila

Shahidah M,Me,Cherry,Fatin and Wendy

"I WILL BRING U HOME"

Mdm Ang and daughter.....

''Can i have..errrr.....MALL COP....."OUR TICTS...

At the movies...

Give me the strength!!!i need it

2009-03-20T16:49:00.003+08:00

Dad has since got discharge.......and my next step is to keep a look out for him....its a great challege...i know it will be....A VERY GREAT BURDEN THAT I HAVE TO CARRY..

Its been a buzy week for me....running down to the 2 different wards...Abg Dan and Abah...Abg Dan is still stuck at ICU...AND im always pray for your wellness..stay strong...i know u can do it!

Not forgoting the 2 days of going back to school to meet up with Mdm Jenny Yeo to complete the both Bronze and Silver NYAA....Hei but its not bad after all...i always have company...

Ok..im kinda tired to carry on blogging for today....il blog again soon....

PS:I miss school....I miss the Hospital Environment...

I mss u...

2009-03-16T12:11:00.002+08:00

I thought that im able to have an ease of mind now that i hv graduated...But No!!!i am having the darkest period of my life.....
I miss dad alot..thought i always raise my voice at u,but i dont really mean it..im sori..
I miss your loud voice...i miss everything about u..i miss your encouraging words..especially when u are always proud at me for being a nurse..

But somehow i couldnt help myself thinking i might fail myself as a son or a nurse...

Now i really hope u could stand on your own feet and get well soon...even way better than before...I miss u abah...i really miss u....I will always pray for your wellness.....

DEDICATION TO FELLO NURSES

2009-03-13T22:43:00.009+08:00

Hello people..the dust have settled...2 years have gone in a flash....and i cant believe that i have actually manage to survive the course....the hard work, the sacrifice...the endless timing,the ups and down and here i am...the lucky ones that actully survive the course....As i reflect i can actually recall all the good memories...since day 1....(I leave the momories in my next post..maybe..)

Well maybe i'll just dedicate this post as a dedication for my friends........

Dearest JR0704C,these 2 years of spending in-campus with u really makes me look forward to come to school everyday...u guys are unique and special in your own way...i will definately miss u guys lots..u guys are the best ever...thanks for the encouraging words that kept the class including myself to strive and definately push myself to my limit.... i love u guys lots..good luck for the future...and keep in touch.....

Haha..to my dearest TTSH3....Just a Confessions that i have been wanting to say...its started rocky...i just dislike u guys ....INITIALLY!!!..(im sori)....it hurts so much when u guys started to talk behind my back...gossiping about me. negative words about me were pass around...and making me cry inside my heart and all i could do is just keep telling myself to me strong and believe in myself....it hurts so much that im always being judge for every little things that i do..and i really glad that i told myself that im not who they think i am and running away from this problem will always reflect myself as coward.....

That was in the past..things got better in 2.1 and i can really see the change in them...including me..for making an effort to get tto know them a little bit closer each day...one by one really got to know the real me...instead of hearing from other people..the last attachment got even better...

2.2 attachment....u guys makes me love u all even more..il tresure all of u....and we share about almost everything..and by now...i really cant escape by telling myself that im lucky to be in this group and i dont really blame u guys coz i am also at fault too...i can see how united we are especially looking out for each other backs during our last K.K postings...Guys u really have taught me lots about Nursing and let alone lessons in life....making me mature each day...U guys are like my family...like brother and sisters...and definately u guys makes my journey in Nursing a wonderful and memorable one...I LOVE U GUYS..After this im goin to have a post-syndrom...i will miss u guys like hell..Can we turn back the time and go through attachment again as one...???haha..keep in touch and im definately looking forward on the 21st.. "alright student"

TTSH3(in random order)

1.Wendy:(i noe u will read this)..One of my closest one...we really share alot of things in common..we both enjoy blogging and face-booking....and People..Wendy is so brillent and the nursing care of patient is as if its god gift..the best that i have ever seen.....and i really wanna thank u for believing in...and good luck for your future..im sure u will progress to being an SN..and most definately THE best Nurse..all the best gal..im gona miss working with u....

2.Siti Hanah: An alumni from the Anugerah 07..she can really sing well and when she sings..i am secretly mesmerise by the voice....other then that her nursing care is really good...and she always strive for the best..and its a nice partnership...working in the same cubicle as her 2 times and definately a good partnership being the choosen leader during our 2.2 medical posting..i hope u will excel in your career be it in Nursing,acting or singing..

3.Syahidah Aziz:Actually my closest one...my lil sister...(haaha)...She is the one that has my back when eveyone seems to shunt away from me...Thanks for believing in me since day 1 and im glad we were posted to geylang poly for our rehab...if not we were not be as close as today..and im also glad that u found the career that u have always search for..good luck in whatever u do..

4.Shahidah Mazelan:My songs downloader...and she is the quiet one yet the smile will always be there..very much a silent cheerful person..i love the laughter of hers..keep smiling..good luck for the future...

5.Shahidah Sulaiman:The last attachment got us closer and we relly had fun during our dec.Ryla kota tinggi trip...and are the one person im very comfortable working with...i really got to know u better each day...and she is the one that always kept the ball rolling even thought the k.k postings were such a bored..good luck in your working life..u will make great nurse one day

6.Fatin:A scarry person i thought initial..with the jeling and all...but overall i can really see the smile u started smiling at me...and i thought hei i tink i managed to change the way she initially thought who i was....anyway she is a sweet and cherful gal....stay cheerful always...and good luck in everything that u do..

7.Rajes:One of my closes..my "girlfriend''...she the talkative amoung the group and i am glad u been through with me in my entire 2 years with me...my classmate as well as my Cp mate...and i definately wana stick with u if we were to be an EN one day..Same ward maybe..?and i will always thank u for being such a nice listening ear...good bless u..good luck

8.Than dar:My classmates as well as my Cp Mate,the one who is also independent and always being fierce at times..she is an extrovert but always believe in whatever she do..very well confident..and always soft hearted at times..stay happy always..and good luck and hopefully your dream of going to the poly will be achieve..

9.Cherry:One of my closest and as same as wendy both have the best nursing care towards the patient..she has an infectious laugh..and her cat-phrase"i hate u ramblem..in her tagalog accent..she the most cheerful amoung the group...and i will definatelly miss u..god luck n the working world....and im still awaiting for the facebook account..hahaha.

10.Syarah:The so-call baby in the group with the blurrness in her...but she is so patience and no matter what people say about her..she will just ignorned and smile.....and she is the type nobody have the heart to scold her...and she is definately a good listening ear....and i wanna wish u very good luck in whatever choice u make even thought nursing isnt your forte...

11.Izfa:Hei we were together in our 1st day of school and also our lst last day of school..and never did i imagine that u will join TTSH...in this group somemore...and i know lots of things have said about u in 2.1 but u stayed strong and i really take my hats of u...thats why your effort have paid off..its nice working with her...the always confident one...stay cheerful always and good luck in the working world...SGH will will your 3 place after NUH and TTSH...cool or wat???

12.Zasila:The most direct person in our group..she dint like me initially...i know..but its okey that was in the past...maybe we both didnt make the effort to get to know the person through themself..During 2.2 i got to know her a little better and hmm...she is not bad after all...she had her softer side too...and very caring too...always dont like to see the nurses bullying me..and she will always come up to me and said."Can u learn how to say NO!!!.."haha...Wana wish u good luck in your working world...stay cheerful always..

13.Aaron:Hahaaa....We dislike each other that we cant really look at each other straight in the eye..let alone enter each other cubicle....but 2.1 really makes me open up my mouth and talk to u..and i can see the situation improve bits..and but 2.2....we can really tell jokes to each other straight to the faces...anyway wana wish u good luck in your future...you and i..a future NS man..

TO my CP Lecturers.....

Mdm Norliza Hassan:She is my best nursing lecturer in ITE Nursing...She is so soft-spoken but yet strict in every way....she is a good listening ear...and i remember u told me during my in-famous 1.1 incident.."all that has happen to u will make u a stronger person"...She has the motherly nature that u wont get stress when doing the skills with her..Thanks for always believing in me and pushing myself to the limit and trusting me to become a leader to shape the responsibily in me...and i really glad i have u as a cp lecturer for the 2nd time...u really watch us grow..i really hope u can join us on the 21st

Mdm Ang Wee Ian:She is scarry at 1st...maybe she was pregnant then...Same as Mdm Norliza,she is a very soft spoken but yet strict in every way...when we got her yet again in 2.2..i was kinda shock..die la...but her she is nicer this time around...she much more approachable..and became like our motherly figure...always treating us to food....subways cookies,breakfast and lunch snacks...haha...thanks..and she always give me a very resonable marks to me...she really make an impact on me..Thanks for being such a nice lecturer and hopefully i will be able to see u on graduation day...

To friends and lecturers that have made my life in Nursing a wonderfully one...Im sorry if i have ever hurt your feelings....but on a whole,i really enjoy being with u guys and hopefully we can like work together again....good luck for the future and may we all mit again..keep in touch!!

Yours truely,

RAMLAN

Days seems numbered

2009-03-11T10:32:00.002+08:00

The days seems numbered and its seems im lost of words to begin with....still searching for the answer that is left hanging...i still have the negative thoughts,the insecurities not forgoting the ever me that is hard to get rid off...THE PESSIMISM...

3 more days to go and i didnt enjoy my current k.k posting like how i expected..i really miss the hard work severing the geron patients in TTSH....Currently am in the same ward with the TTSH 2....its very akward working with them but neverless they are bunch of nice people...

And i definately enjoying the last moment with my group...its certainly nice of the to make my last journey in 2.2 attachment worthwhile...

OK...i not in the pink of health now..am having a sudden flu and cough..and the multiple ulcers in my mouth is killing me...il update when im in the mood.....

I dedicate my next posting to dear friends who have made my 2 years in Nursing a wonderful journey.

7 days.....

2009-03-04T16:59:00.002+08:00

Finally...after bugging Bear for a new blogskin,its done...thanks !!

I am like left with freaking 7 days left till i graduate and the fact that im not even ready to take on my role as a EN let alone venture into adulthood...i certainly cannot escape the fact that im already have a future ahead not a student unlike in my secondary school days....its certainly seems that its as if i just completed my O levels....im always thinking about what im going to do with life....so Ramlan,....whats NEXT????????And the same old answer.....in which...i dont noe...really...gosh...

Okey...attachment in K.K is currently smooth sailing to the exception of the lecturer....gosh i really cannot stand her...why cant Mdm Ang be in my ward...its way much better...As per the lecturer im refering to...haix...she was like 24/7 with us and always following us like where we are going...standing close to us while we are playing with the kids and babies but she did not even talk to us nor smile...im serious...she is like your shadow..and even the NYP and the patient mom notice and commented about her...which is quite funny though....Anyway im not going to get my skills acess by her for sure...

Speaking of skills..i hv yet gotten my log book from my lecturer....when everyone else got them..hopefully i got mine tomorrow coz i yet to see her for my marks..and certainly i need to get my skills sign from my staff especially for my infant bathing this morning...damn it...hopefully the staff can like remember my face coz i dont really bother to do those skills again...

Plans for this saturday is definately the same....hanging out..but where???i aint got no idea..till then...chiao...

My blog under construction

2009-02-27T17:11:00.003+08:00

hello ppl...im back....and guess what???I Just ended my my general ward postings in TTSH....its kinda sad though considering im still having the memories linggered since day 1 when i started my attachments....and i have since come a long way....and yup i decided to do NGT for Syarah coz my cubicle ran out of NGT..(discharge already....from the whole cubicle on NGT to none)..its like so call my last one...and i definately gonna miss the smart sense...its way super cool..coz TTSH is the onli one using the high tech stuff....

And i definately gonna miss staff that i have work with...past and present ward...especially Renay from my present ward...we always have a competition on TED stockings....who can put on the fasters....and i always end up the champ...hahaha...

Our last day was perfect until this idiotic male lecturer came and scolded us for knocking off like 3 mins earlier...and he said.."where is your integrity???if u sign off as 3 pm,and knock off early that means u ppl have false chart the IMR and I/o.....WTH.....even our lecturer sees us knocking off early and walking out of the ward 3 pm sharp....and didnt say a word..and pls..we are not stupid to false chart when it concerns a life....and it doesnt link at all....

And thanks to my lecturer who is on leave today understanding....she didnt even scold us..but told us not to do it again...

Next week mother and child posting....im gonna be so dead...but should be okey la coz most of my peers have gone through it....

Tomorrow plans..gonna mit the interactors and hang out and slept over at Ham cribs...alrite!!!

Okey il update again....btw my blog is still under constructions....

RANDOM

2009-02-19T10:44:00.003+08:00

IF I COULD TURN...TURN BACK THE HANDS OF TIME......

Heloo people am blogging randomly before im off to work..
been feeling under the weather since yesterday afternoon....it must have been the weather..too hazy at times..and due to the workload that made me tired at times...im always pushing myself to the limit..and sometimes im not sure if its all worth it....
The sleeping nites have kept my anxiety acting like something is bothering me...am i really under tremendous stress....???
Im trying to learn as much as i can in the ward especially when its a busy ward that kept me going at times...This attachment means a lot to me....i have too make up for everything that i loss..and its doesnt matter it you people were to talk about me....like u used to do...coz i put everything aside...and also i dont really care if im saying ''Yes'' to everything..im not a ''bahan''...even if i did im still learning ....

Time is running out........the answer is still left un''answer''......

vday

2009-02-16T18:43:00.006+08:00

Today..im so mad at someone..
Today..i feel so agitated
Today was a buzy Monday morning..
Today i sweat like a pig..
Today i feel tired but am still continue to stay awake
Today...Tomorrow..AND Yesterday..

Anyway..Happy BE-lated Friendship day or Vday to the couples out there...
On 14 Feb celebrated the aniversary of the 04 and Friendship day at the ECP...and guess what we did????Picnic with minimal food as our food got infested by the stupid ants..
Set the tent that can actually fit the 10 0f us...and who was there???the 04 including bear,hyrul,Cousin Syarif...(the one that overnite)...and we were like cycling from the end of ECP Til Changi where there isnt any complete end journey..just a straight journey leading us to nowhere...

Had our big supper from Cousin Syarif aunt Chalet...ate ikan pari,Crab and more then a dozen of Satay..from a NO food to Lots of food....Cool..and not forgotting the 04 pict that was handed out by dayah..(The 04 still stood strong till today...suprised people???)

So im hoping for another 04 outing...so hopefully its real soon...

After Sunday,had a post Friendship day with ex colleague from MIX...it was nice to see the reunion of managers...which include...Yen,Alif,Gladys,Maylyn,Georgina,Roselle,Annalyn...AND us..the green uniform part timers..it was held at the Thompson C.C...and we did the usual thing...Karaoke...so i have been to Karaoke 4 weeks in a row...hahaha...

And i went home with Anna...she still as pretty and attractive as ever..hei and thanks for sharing the problem of yours...Stay strong...and im sure everything will be alright....and u were right...MIX IS THE BEST WORKING PLACE...EVERRRRR....I really hope that MIX will be able to open up the stores again...its been 2 years since the store closes down...

OK..am not really in the mood for blogging...will post something when im really in the mood..

The EX mix darling MEI YIN,ME AND QI YI...

ANNA..ONE OF MY FAVOURITE FILIPINA MANAGER...still pretty as ever..haha

THE HELIPAD

2009-02-10T20:49:00.005+08:00

Hello everyone...here i am blogging yet again...just return home from school..and truely i really love being in school after work coz i met the class JR0704C...Anyway another purpose was to see my cliques...but dafy wasnt there..and i miss u..nv mind but anyway the time spent today with Shif,Nad and Han was really worthwhile....i really miss u guys lots...and yeah it was really fun to see the kebelohan Nad and Shif.....When will i see u guys again????

Another great thing happen today...I was posted to Emergency Department(ED)...Well am sure all the group from another hospitals have been to ED last semester..and TTSH lambat setapak...well who cares???coz i experience something that i will remember for a lifetime...I WAS AT THE TOP STOREY OF TTSH...witnessing the drill of the helipad....OK...(A helipad is receiving the patient from the helicopter..)its kinda complicated though..coz u really need to know what type of helicopter is arriving...and the baring of the helicopter landing...well u need to know all this when your being posted to ED....its tested btw..

And being in ED is super fun to the extend that u need to be on the ball and definately OT is fun but i doubt that im able to do all the complicated dressing and giving of IMs....but i still prefer the in-patient ward environment....

And today was really funny coz while at the OT,Izfa was doing dressing on a patient who is a typical Mat REP......and while the dressing is being done,he still kinda maintain his Mat Rep muke with that step face especially his mouth..(mulut maintain....)

Ok..got to go... tmr going back to the new ward that i really dislike....and its my former C.A ward..hehe..sori techer...k.k....see the picts..its a nice view rite...??

The 7 of us including our lecturers...Mdm Yeo and Mdm Ang

Shahidah s.,Me,Izfa,Fatin

remembering the days

2009-02-08T01:44:00.002+08:00

REMEMBERING THE DAYS....

Hello people..its close to 3 am now and i just returned from an random outing with Ham and Apeas and a later join by Daniel,Dayah and Cousin Syarip..another random decision that let us to Karaoke for the 3 weeks in a row which results in a sore in my vocal cords..(i aint a self proclaim singer after all...)

Then after the Karaoke went back to AMK...where me,Bear and Dayah were recalling our past dated way back in Secondary school from the good and the bad...And today Bear told me about almost everything of the gossip and talking behind my back ..way back in Sec 5..Dont get me wrong, i'hv move on..I Really put them behind...i dont care really now coz im really happy with my new cycle of friends and the old friends who have faith in me...and to apologise to me...and telling me that they dont really find the big fault and to realise who i was the person deep inside...was really nice of them

I really wanna thank this person so much for having to stood by me all the time and to believe in me when the whole world turn their back on me...You have faith in me...believing me in whats in your heart...trusting me...And who can predict that you once dislike me so much then and now we are in this together and till this very day we are still standing strong...i really feel that i emerge the winner...i believe that if you really open up your heart and mind...trusting the inner you deep inside.. rather then others a better perception of the person is what you will see..Thats a life lesson for everyone including me to learnt...So Dayah....your friendship is priceless and i really appreciate your friendship...
Another Group of people i really would like to thank is none other then the O4...our 2 years of aniversary which falls on Vday is coming soon and i know that we really had some communication problem which lead the word Trust to be questioned recently..And.. yup.i really trust each and everyone including you....its not worth thinking about it making things complicated.It might prolonged...lets treat it as a test of our friendship coz i really believe that the 04 can last till the test of time..and really lets put everything behind and start a new chapter...start anew...and im planing for an outing on Vday so i hope you can really make it this time.....(Ps:You people have been the best...and i believe god have reasons to put us together to make our life journey worthwhile)

(i love this pict so much.....its the begining....dated feb 07)

my current life

2009-02-06T11:05:00.003+08:00

im blogging in random again while waiting to go for my afternoon shift..its really sucks to end your day in the afternoon shift and its also my last day in the ward..truth is im so lazy to move on to another ward when i truely have adapt to my cardio ward..staff have being so awsome..in a way they truely teaches the hard way of living in the harsh and yet lots of learning journey...so yeah i wont mind working in that ward to begin with....

These remaing weeks will decide if i really want to be a nurse...and am still considering working in TTSH...i really want to be a nurse after joining the course because of my ''daughter''...welll i dont really have goals at that point time..but i manage to convince myself that i really like this line...unfortunalely there is still questions to be asked...il just wait and see...

I find myself wondering for the past 2 days to my question...and i really got the answer...i really work hard for this posting...but i did not work smart...i really need directions and have to prioritise certain things...and i was really happy the other day when bed 88 a kong really like my nursing care when i change his diapers...he told his grand daughter that he wanted no one but me to change as i was the gentle compared to the other nurses....and the rest of family knows it....

OK....i really miss my cliques in school...(dafy,shif,nad,han,jess,..to many to mention)hope u all are having fun and doing well in Cp...as for me...i always try to convince myself that im having lots of fun in Cp..and im getting alrite with my mates after feeling empty for my previous attachments..they are very nice people..and im gonna evaluate each and everyone of them at the last day of attachment....

Ok.......I wana get ready for work and really gona miss my .............................................

random yet again

2009-02-03T17:30:00.004+08:00

I guess i have been updating my blog trying to keep it alive....truth to be told,i dont really enjoy blogging that much since its kind of a public display of your affections....but yeah..im totally bored after work..not that i dont wanna rest but its seems that the afternoon power naps really keeps me up till morning and by the time i knew,it was time to go work..yawn..really its so exhausting...trying to put on the fake smile and and doing lots of workload when actually your mind is fully shut..

These few days the workload have been so heavy to the extend that you wish to split yourself into 2 parts...and when you wanted to say no,everything comes into yes..."can-can"...gosh...i really have to learn to say no...Am i Just too naive to begin with???

And i can hardly ran and im doing real EN jobs when staff decided to go Mia...And when planning of works sucks,lecturer will look at you one kind and may penalise you for that..haix..but hei..im running around like mad dog....trying to get things done...but hei...im treating everyday like a challenge....a step ahead to be a certified and competent EN...

Ok..i just hope tomorrow will be a better day....and i certainly need to sleep....Tonight....

THERES A WHOLE IN MY SIDE WALK

2009-02-02T17:57:00.005+08:00

There's A Hole In My SideWalk

I walk down a street and there's a big hole
I dont see it and fall into it
Its dark and hopeless and it takes me a long time to find my way out
Its not my fault

I walk down the same street
There's a big whole and i can see it,but i still fall in
Its dark and hopeless and it takes me a long time to get out

I walk down the same street again
There's a big hole and i can see it,but i still fall in
Its becoming a habit,but i kept my eyes open and get out immediately
Its my fault

I walk down a street
There's a big hole.And i walk around it
I walk down a different street

kbox

2009-02-01T13:43:00.004+08:00

Another random entry to keep the time pass fast...guess i really aint got plans on a Sunday...lets see how it goes...i hate staying home on a weekends..its the same old thing when u have attachments...life revolves around work and then home...i have no life to begin with....thats why i always make sure weekends its the best time for me to set loose....freedom...

So decided to hang out with my best pal..aka...2nd twin brother..Hamli...and yeah not forgotting the always M.I.A..Hafiz Buang aka Bear.....so it was off to set loose...initially was planning to watch movie "The Wedding Game"...so we felt that its kinda bored to waste 10 bucks for a movie of an hour plus...so we went to my favourite pastime spot where you might find me there..Cash Studio..i sumpah it so so so so random..we were like...share we go karaoke..and i was like ..GREAT!!!...there goes the reservation...and the rest was history....3 single guys..trying to sing in harmony dreaming to make it big one day...(hahaaa...thats fantasy)but i got to admit..the 3 of us really make a good singing trio...(sorry arip)...bear sang well in his "Kau Ilham ku" and me and Ham..singing like pro with our own duet version of ''Dambaan''...wooh.....So any recording producer wanting so fresh raw talent,look for us....

Plans for next saturday still on hold..but we definately got something worth waiting....

Gosh..next week or i should said tomorrow is my last week in the medical ward...and also marks the last week of our lecturer before Mdm Ang will take us...yet again...Boring...so my plan is to complete my competency...if it permits....

Today is also ''mom'' birthday..Happy birthday ''mom''!!!!i really miss u lots and hope to really see u soon...and i guess so what u really want for your birthday wish this year...well hope it will come true..

Other then ''mom'' i really miss my................................................

Okey got to go before the batt go low...enjoy your day people..

horsey

2009-01-30T16:37:00.003+08:00

Today the horse finally get to taste the water via independently...no pulling to the get to the water...i gallop...i tried my best and this really what convince me try that one more time....or even more to come...

Today i was galloping like the horse...was partnering with an EN of just a week old...a nurse formerly working in Pulau Pinang...geeesss...and seeing her struggling with the duty makes me reflect a future me...what if im in this situation when i pass out...will i be like that???coz currently the horse need some pulling just to get to the water...

I was initially angry...been thrown to almost everything...including the annoying pt who refuses to practise his own ADL...and becoming so dependent....thats explain the frequent call bell

I have to teach the EN the updating of I/O....to the off-plug..to the urosheath...and she had to ask me questions which i gladly answer "You should know coz your the EN..."im so bad...but ya she did apologised after that for all the trouble...I understand coz i tend to put myself in others shoes..

And the SN also made me look as if im the EN....order diet and order the the glucerna feeds nurtrition....i was like..Can2...o wait..i tink we need the emos for that...or something...

But yeah the adrenaline rush keeps me going and i simply love it...

And today...my lecturer say me and said "why so stress..??..and i told her and she said ''good..thats the way it should be....'' yeah!!!!o ya..i did my First TOC...after 4 weeks...mind u..its hard to get patient to be on cathether in my ward..

Well i just hope this monday most of my patient will be discharge..hei but i love my cubicle..so many things to do...

Okey...the horse here want to get some rest..off to kranji soon to race..(joking..)

Enjoy your weekend people....

random topic

2009-01-29T16:56:00.005+08:00

TOPIC 1:

Finally i got time to blog..However im in the state of tired zombie-like mood...Just came back from the AM shift.. ok..il blog about an outing during the CNY..something i really enjoy doing.. that is SINGING..Yup you heard me rite...though i cant really sing well but hell who cares...!!!so i really took an opportunity to head down to Cash Studios and trash the mic..Who were there???of coz the Badots society..Songs from Classics,pop,Jiwang and not forgoting my lagu wajib...ADA CINTA...a must song to sing with cousin Syarif...

And after the Karaoke with Them..we just hang around at our usual spot..Esplanade...and there me and Cousin Sya introduced them to our new hang out...near raffles place mrt...o wait..what do we called it?????il better find out..real soon....ok..theres the Cam-whorring picts...let the pict speaks for itself....

TOPIC 2..

How about life in attachments so far????i dont know...today most of us including myself were question by our lecturer....????about hw do u really rate yourself as a 2.2 student ranging from an A to D...Knowledge wise plus the everday empasis THE EN ROLE...well i told myself i a C...but come to think of it,it could be worst...a D!!!...She always empasis us...."its time to take the role of an EN...U must plan your work!!!!get the ball rolling..and we are like a horse... we must gallop or do anything just to drink the water and im not always there to pull u just to get u there..."These words will keep me in mind...and standing alone and galloping fast just to get the water is a no joke...Thats why im enjoying myself as just being a STUDENT NURSE..

TOPIC 3

I truely wanted to tell this to someone...someone i really care and treasure..the original..the friendship..the everything..i guess we drifted apart one way or another..the seldom miting up got in our way..perhaps its a test of our friendship..i do trust you...seriously but somehow or rather its not convincing enough...and yup im sori to hurt u time and again...

Let just close the chapter and begin a new chapter of trust in a brand new year...i really appreciate THE FRIENDSHIP...

Night duty

2009-01-22T16:01:00.008+08:00

Finally..i have ended my 3 rounds of night shift..supposed to my sleeping day..and i onli slept a mere 4 hours onli..well who cares coz tmr is my rest day..plus weekends and PH...so hopefully i can sleep like a log..

Anyway these 3 past night shift have been a hell of a night..thr constant pain and the silence trap at your own cubicle wondering and poundering about almost everything...trying to keep awake before anything happens to the patients..

Night 1..an unfortunate incident happen which landed my friend(which one???go figure) and i into a hot soup..here is the incident..My frend was not being told to stay at her cubicle 24/7..well am sure those doing nite shift will rather stay at the nurses counter...slacking..well not for us..

Well this frend of mine was helping me to take an hrly para for a difficult pt who onli speaks hokkien..at my cubicle..however she is in Team 1..so she cross over to my team(Team 3) and unexpectly the pt at her cubicle who was a moment ago was sleeping,climb out of her bed and fell...she was bleeding from her head...And there the pin pointing,blaming were point at her..Questions like.."Where were u...??''why did u cross over??''...BULLSHIT...!!!where were all the staff nurses then????siting at the nurses counter doing their freaking report...

Its a long story to begin..but im glad its over... The Sister spoke to us and the blame was not pointed at her..or me.. but in fact everyone who did the night duty..
As for me....i Was told to work together with my team and not a frend who is from diffrent team..for any simple reasons though some staff are unapproachable...

I really thank my colleague..and my lecturer who is always supportive...Today when i handed her my reflection letter...she told me..no one is to be blame..(well i wrote in the letter that i was partly to blame..)..and im always glad that your my lecturer..

Well this 3 days of night shift have taught me a lot of things.....we learnt from our mistakes and grew from it....and spending time with the 2 girls is the best moment ever...and not forgotting the our last night mini party..free food...free Money...plus the cam-whorring..

PS:Happy sleeping day and rest day and enjoy the remaining 5 days off...''GOOD NITE'' gals..(hehe)

TWIN

2009-01-18T20:58:00.007+08:00

Hello people..i decided to blog today...well i realised that most of my recent post are about Nursing..geeesss...well what to do???My life revolves around Attachments and then Home...nothing else...until yesterday awsome day with my twin cousin..(Go figure)..

Well..its so much fun bitching around with each other..plus the cam-whoring..1st stop met my friends where we had lunch..supposed to stop to la selle and Nafa open houses..But being the fool,i dont even know where it was located..WTF..

Then decided to stop Town and attend gigs..and guess what..its LIVE N LOADED...and wasnt really interested but yeah..hopefully to bump into UTT..(i sound so Gay)...and yeah we dislike gigs..cos we aint a geek..(as per Syarif)...

Next Stop..To Marina Barrage..To mit..Dayah and Khai..and mit Syarif frend..AND Sya chat with him about Clubbing..his favourite hangout??Chymes and Play...and interfere saying...''IS THAT SUPPOSE TO BE A GAY CLUB??''...And Sya went on to say..errr...hes a Gay...and i was like.(damn Ramlan..U should have just shut ur mouth!!)..

And then we happen to watch the finale of SURIA Channel.."SATU FAMILI''...AND guess who won....(neh..im not gonna tell..So stay tune..THRS..8.30PM)

Next Went to Mit my buddy Farhan where we played the game..Destination and Fuzzy Wazzy...AND terselah kebodohan si Farhan...haha..(make sure you test it on your Friends esp Hazwan!!!

SOME RANDOM PICTS

As per tomorrow...is my Night shift..kinda looking foward to it..but at the same time,i wonder if the workload gets lighter during the night shift...am praying not to work with 2 particular En..gosh they really take advantage of students...so tmr Me, Wendy and Cherry are gonna rock the ward...and hopefully get my case-study done ASAP during the shift...

Got to go....see ya people

TGIF

2009-01-16T17:56:00.004+08:00

Hei..pple...the week end in here again..im pretty much happy in this last semester attachment..nothing could go wrong when u have nice bunch of people working with u..(i hope)..and yup..having a repeated lecturer is not a bad thing after all.....No Tensing up upon doin skills oeverything...

Today so much things happened...I was supprised that ''daughter'' mom was admited to my ward and she did not even tell me...(pass..)..and ofcoz try to give my restricted nursing care to her...(well i cant nurse a female patient)...

Today one of our mates was ascused of...................by the patient..well it almost could have been me...but yeah lucky i was busy preparing to do dressing....and the.............. came in...and we were all investigated.... its was super kecoh..and DRAMATIC..
and the most ridiculious thing we were not allow to leave the ward area till almost 3.30..But i know u are gona be alrite..we believe u..no worries we will support u...(ps..No Question to be asked)..

PS..m starting my night shift next monday...My Schedule...MON,TUES,WED...Night Shift..THRS,FRI..Sleeping and Rest Day...SAT,SUN..weekends..MON,TUES..CNY...=TO 6 DAYS OFF....ITs Super COOOL....

ice water...

2009-01-13T22:11:00.003+08:00

Am doing my Case-Study here and there...and decided to blog ..okey here is what happened today..(im still having the infecious laugh till now)

Lunch time...

Bed88:eh man...gua nak air sejuk...tap water seblah sink pi isi cawan ni..air ini panas
Me:Tap Water???(nak mampos ke???ada sister maki aku..)Tak pe la Bai..gua pi kitchen ambik air warm utk bai....
(when i came back)
Bed 88:Eh bodoh eh..gua nak air SEJUK...ICE WATER!!!!
ME:(ICE WATER???tapi nantti lau dier batok nanti..siape di salah kan???ah mampos ah..baik aku tanye SN)
SN:U just give what he wants or leta he make noise again..
ME:(MAMPOS AH...MAHA ICE AKU KASI....SIOL CB....)
Bed 88:eh tadi lu tak paham bahasa...lu org ape????china mari nye????
ME:(China bapak lu)

He then told Shahidah Sulaiman...
Bed 88:mane jantan pakai baju putih??gua minta air sejuk dier kasi satu ice aje..kedekot nye jantan...

And when Shahidah told me...i got angry that i when berserk..and there goes my loud voice cursing him...and when i turn back...my lecturer was standing behind me smilling...and pulling me one corner and she was laughing away with my story...and she told me not to let my emotions gets in the way...and its funny cos after i told her..i began to laugh at myself...how i got the vebal abuse and how i was espressing out my anger w/o knowing that my lecturer was just behind me..

And it didnt help when he press the call bell just to ask me which country i came from....and the laughter and smilling didnt go away even as i was educating pts on Pelvic floor exercise...

Due to that was commented by my lecturer to be serious in my educating..haix..tomorrow same cubical and have to face that Bai again..

Till then....me..signing off

1ST WEEK OF ATTACHMENT

2009-01-10T10:52:00.002+08:00

A week have passed..4 more weeks till the end of the medical ward that i really dread...heres the thing..theres not much skills to be done..or i should say..none of 2.2 skills...its a cardio ward..so theres no..NVA,dressing,Catheter..all that was left is my diluted year 1 skills as per mdm norliza..theres no more short-cuts even from the removing of aprons..hehe...

As per routine..everything seems normal...slightly buzy in the morning shift..like yesterday it was so so so buzy that i almost felt like my body is giving me up...taking Vital signs have been a double job by using the smart sense thingy...its hard adapting...no more clinical charts..after taking their Vital Signs on a piece of paper..(or even tissue paper..heh) we have to key in into the computer..worst..we need a password to access to the computer...and we dont have to take their temperature coz they have a termo chip attach to their groin area..Technology is eating the nurses up...and heard from the staff that they are planning to do the same thing for their BP in future..

Yesterday was so tired that i fall asleep soon after i reach home..and i got a wonderful dream which ends as a nitemare..gosh...i dream of getting to noe this person better..we were so close...and i even went to her house...and at the end of the dream....it turn to something upexplainable which only my mind can be explain..stupid Freddy for invading and killing my dream...

Okey i'l update soon...maybe by the end of next week..if the events are exciting to update..

Good luck to me

2009-01-04T13:43:00.003+08:00

Helloo People....still counting MINUTES AND HOURS to coming back to CP...and definately this time round am not fully prepared yet(since when)...still afraid i crumble with anxiety....Will somebody stop the time...

Anyway am having trouble with my freaking body clock..still praying that i can fall asleep ready and fresh for CP...Dont want things to repeat itself..and get a earful scolding like what Ms Emily did to me in 2.1...

TO ALL MY FELLOW NURSES..GOOD LUCK FOR CP TOMORROW
MAY WE ALL GRADUATE WITH FLYING COLOURS...

AND...

MOM..i hope you will be praying for me......and im still waiting for me xmas present..hope to see you soon..

HELLO 2009

2009-01-01T16:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!!!HOPEFULLY YEAR 2009 WILL BE A BETTER ONE FOR YOU AND I..........(SPREAD THE LOVE!!!!).......

Whats my New Year Resolutions????Lets just say i wanna be a confident Missy and had fun during my 2 year stint of N.S....(Okey..i dont really believe in making one..coz to me new year resolutions are just Wishes..)

Well i had fun celebrating this year ushering 2009....Well its way diffrent and was much enjoyable from the previous years..dun get me wrong..coz this year was an unexpected twist of fun...plus its kinda unique in a very way..guess wat????i wasnt even at the orchard or the floting platform..thought i had the ticks....(it was a last minute decision...anyway thanks Nick for the ticks)..We were at Thomson...Prata House..counting down the new year...i was with the Bardotz Society..plus we had our Midnite Walk walking from Thomson,Bishan and then back to AMK...

And our destination...The Usual Hall...playing Mind bottling games which i got the answer...heres what we play..if i can recall..too many games

fuzzy-watzzy
destination
jonny-wush
black/white magic
what time???
i know..i know..(thanks khai)
Bluff
007
Bang-Bang
Concentration

It was way super Cool..Gonna test out with my friends when i see them...and ya..was plus the reminisense..from primary to secondary....plus relationship...and all the topics under the Sun...Sun????Coz we were there from 1 plus am till the next day 9am....and yup..i just woke up definately...Cool..Love the B.S..lots..

TO Summerize 08 was just and OK year for me...so i hope 09 will start off and keep maintaining with a BANG...

Me..Signing off..

FUN WITH BADOTZ SOCIETY

2008-12-29T13:09:00.010+08:00

What a way to spend the freaking holidays...ok..im have been spendind time with the cliques..aka..Bardotz Society(B.S)...cool..ok..let me summerise what i did these few days...

25TH OF DEC

Celebrating xmas holiday is cool...celebrate my 3rd aniversary of xmas with Hamli as usual..

2006:Went to Orchard and lavender with the streets directory just to look for my ex-workplace..MIX for the next day 1st day of work..then went to K.K to visit the birth of baby Aliya
2007:Went to our normal hunt...Orchard and Lucky Plaza...plus soccer with the B.S
2008:Went to Orchard and then Tanglin Mall and look for Bear where we hang our and did our darkest secret...and not forgotting the lepak at Marina...one of our favourite Hunt for a chat..So Bear this year u have join us in the so-called aniversary...hehehe

26TH OF DEC..

As usual when to Friday prayers with the B.S and after the our normal lunch at Amk Banquet where the guys hantam bear with the MIA all these while....and next we played 3 hours of soccer plus the PSP And lepak like orang tak ada tujuan...and the soccer again till Syarif Hartono kick the ball which end up in the bushes...and we end up looking the ball...

Then we headed for dinner at ILMAZ...and lepak again at the Void deck till 12 midnite..and Mom asked if as if i help to lock up the masjid gates..hehehe

27TH OF DEC...

BOYS NITE OUT...met Bear,Jamal as early as 12 pm...before miting the rest of the B.S...we are going to watch the BEDTIME STORIES...for FREE....tickets were given by Ibu....thanks Ibu...so we met Ibu and Syarif...and gosh the remaining guys were late..hei but luckily we were in time for the movie...but unfortunately Jamal AND bEAR did not watch coz there were not enough tickets..overall the movie was fun..but i'll give 2 1/2 stars out of 5..

Then we went to Orchard and as usual lepak and the window shopping....

28TH OF DEC

Went to Kak Anna wedding...Full of drama..here's the thing we were late and Hannah Called to say that Kak Anna is at the guy side in Yishun...so we took the Cab and could not find the block..went round and round only to find out that Hannah went back home...so we make a detour to Jurong West but we did not have the address coz the stupid me misplace the wedding invitation card...so we called Hannah to find out the address...When we reach there,we were like strangers...still waiting for Kak Anna to return...And we were siting near the kuda kepang and there were a few times the kuda kepang were near our table...What to do..kuat kan iman...then we decided to go home...coz Kak Anna is returning at 7pm..so we never really mit kak Anna..haix..

AHS SOCIAL NITE

2008-12-23T12:34:00.006+08:00

OVER DUE PICTS OF AHS SOCIAL NITE....(Too many to upload)
DO..RE..MI...Dafy,Lan,Han

I LOVE THEM....SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH..

Missing them...HUDZ,THURGA,DOUGLAS

IM GLAD UR MY BEST FRIEND!!!!!

WE GAIN WEIGHT EVER SINCE......

NYSA...!!!!!!!!

Fatin,Nysa,LAN,nANA.....WE MIT AGAIN..

mS yeo...!!!(Finally your hair is down) love it..!!!!!!

BOTH FARHAN AND MINE...GOD-SIS....hahaha(betul tk han???)

Mr TAy...the ever so sporting and caring.

THIS one...Special....your my 1st C.p LECTURER... MDM MAVIS YEOW..thanks for the motherly nature and the constant caring..will never forget the incident during 1.1..AND thanks for the encouraging words you gave me...i will never dissapoint you...

Lastly...JR0704C...thanks for the momories

glad its over

2008-12-22T12:06:00.002+08:00

Ok..the dust have settled and i really dont want this to further prolonged...i delected the entry...well i was in the wrong..to blast out everything...im sorry..and its and old story which can be settled...so to Havin and Fara...i hope that this thing wont ruin our friendship of 2 years...and guys thanks a lot for the listening and forgiveness...

with warm regards..RAMLAN

Random Entry

2008-12-14T20:53:00.002+08:00

Im rotting at home duing the weekends and all i could do its to eat and sleep..plus im trully broke with no money...the school social nite is coming soon and i really dont know what to where???i tink im gona wear whats in my closet on the day itself..haha..amyway its only a short period of time..Mrs Tang wont be there...so kinda wasted..a social night without your C.A??and i dont think most of my classmates will be there...and i cant wait to see people dressing up for this event...and i cant wait to see old friends from the ndp...(sori guys im might have to wear the same old thing again..)

Ok..since its the holidays too..i plan to brush uo on my nursing skills and knowledge...i plan to study next week..gonna make up for my GPA...i got a feeling my GPA is gonna drop...i have to keep praying for the best..so yeah..attachments here i come..

Tomorrow our dear Pak Haji Hyrul will returned from the mecca...so my badots society are going to pick her up tomorrow morning at the airport..and hope u do pray for me..and definately hope u become a change man and maybe guide me along the way..kk..got to go...take care people

RYLA 08

2008-12-09T11:18:00.004+08:00

PP NELSON and PP Fancy with ME!!(IM WITH THE COUPLE)

SHAHIDAH AND ME AS A CLOWN

A PART OF RHYNOX

JIA YING AND ME..(MY MAKE UP ARTISE)

STOP ME..CLUE:MY FAVOURITE RED WATCH)

Hello people how have u been doing..??i hope my fellow nurses utillise their holidays to the fullest..well i did...i just returned from kota tinggi,malaysia and seriously i really enjoy it..especially spending time with my fellow RYRArians..yeah...and now im back to the city..busy life..i really miss the nature out there..its really an eye operner for me travelling to malaysia since ages ago..(i didnt take picts that much..most picts is with ill..so yeah..trying to get from her)

okey..i really dont know what to say..but i try....o...i wanna talk about a guy..MAURICE

I Cant believe u i loss my ''virgin''to u...haha..this guy together with Vin and farhan was like ''gang raping''me in the bunk ....Maurice u spank me hard and even gave a love bite....hahaha..that was hiralious...and forcing me in the dorsal recumbant position and...................(opps..shhh..Secret. i cant stop laughing about it)....and bargging in just like that when i took the shower..haha.......YES not forgotting the Japanese HARD GAY that u did..knocking on random peoples door...hahaha....AND Really come to our room and u will see the ''gay'' actions that the guys display and not forggoting our room that has turn into a rubbish rm..and you will notice my disposable underwear lying around..haha...(sorry Maurice!!!yeah Ryla would not be fun without u)

Overall RYLA 08 have been awsome..

Rylarian....Hw are u feeling??

FANTASTIC!!!

Did u enjoy urself??

SHOCK LA!!!

LIKE A BOLT OF LIGHTNING

2008-12-03T21:40:00.005+08:00

LIKE FINALLY...like a flashing bolt..another life journey became a history..i just ended my final exams..and sad to sad i crumble...well not that i did not study or what but its just not being tested..take PCB for example..i studied like what nana jo have recommended and empasis...like traction,turp..ARU..BREAST...cervix cancer..pepek konek cancer..CANCER2 Yg sewaktu dengannye.. ah..god damn it..all that i predicted all when to MCQ..I WANNA MY DISTINCTIONS...well things do happen i certainly know i have tried my best...THINK POSITIVE BOY...

OK..im back on call to TTSH next month...what i cant wait is the 3 nights of night shift.Cool or Wat???hehe..and yeah..im glad i got Mdm Norliza as my CP lecturer..yet again..on the other hand, i have to do my best to complete my skills..wanna show her the proggression that i hv made..and haix..the other part will be taken over by Mdm Ang wee ian..yet again..so this time round its all the yet again lecturer..a pushing point for me to work even more harder...gonna try aim higher..and still my number 1 priorities...DTA...Its still stand coz i never wanna put my heart and soul into some of u..

And im so tired..no relex day for the next few days..am going to kota tinggi tomorrow morning for 4 pathetic days and i have not even pack yet...just return from AMK central and i met Mdm K.K..sat down with her just now and i really miss her lots..miss the times where the 5A1 are together..BUT thats all a history..im happy with my current life and the current friends i'hv made...

AND Certainly im gona miss my current JR0704C..Cant wait for next week class chalet..will update more..HOPEFULLY..

Thanks and God Bless

2008-11-22T10:48:00.005+08:00

OH....no!!!!!can somebody stop the freaking time please..its so cruel..2 years fly like nobody business and i really hate to see the day that we all get to our seperate ways in a few months time...let alone next week my last week in-campus before the freaking attachments calling us up...Till today i have no official heart to heart answer why i join nursing..IM SERIOUS!!!The only true reason why i join nursing because of my ''daughter''...ninie..(above in the pict..rite ninie..rmber @ amk mc do after d results??)...yeah..and i grew to love it...and yeah..wait 4 me to further our studies overseas..

Along the way i met great people who taught me lots of things in throught my journey...I'm sure theres a reason why god put us together as a cliques..love u guys..life will be super boring without u guys..ok dont want 2 say much..keep it for my next blog entry..wait up 4 that people..

The Cliques with Class Advisor:Mrs Tang Sya Shari and I Nadiah and I Daphne and I Shiffa and I Jessica and I Farhan and I

WORD OF ADVISE

2008-11-17T20:34:00.002+08:00

Yup..im updating...got a lil bit distracted on the task im suppose to do..BH project is killing me..too many project..yup and there still CDP to do...and not forgetting all the past papers to do...gosh i really hate this semester..especially PCB....seriously i dont really asorb much in Mrs Tang lessons..all i could thing about is crapping through the day and go....AHHH..and there goes Psychiatric..Whats there to study when Test and Projects are over..Tomorrow theres BH lessons which i dread...Miss Lim is a good lecturer but i just dont bother to listen...thats the attitude of mine...

AND Today was all cranky..thanks to......its hard to shake you..please!!!u are only destroying yourself...WAKE UP!!!!the crush is ruining ur life...Obviously u are fond on her...but ya...have u ever though why she isnt move by u time and again...Yes she could have gone to say that she was flattered but could have gently pointed out that she has her own life to lead and u as a friend would actually let her have the choice...but yeah..its okey if my words fell into death ears but i have your interest at heart....i care...and forgive me for my bluntness...

THERE IS MORE TO LIFE THAN LOVE

RANDOM POST ★ ★ ★ ★ ★

2008-11-16T13:21:00.003+08:00

Its raining heavily...dear god please let me be with u all the time...may u give me peace no matter where i am...its a random post and im still unsure of what to blog thought i feel like blogging..well been thinking all this while wherether my bluntness actually do hurt people..and maybe i did hurt quite a few people..but hei i glad im loved by my friends who do understand my character..i hope..coz sometimes we thought friends unnderstand our character but in fact friends actually feel piss or even disgusted by the character display by us...well i hope we never fall apart for this kind of things..bear it people..2 more weeks or so..its totally no worth it...[reflect and think]

Hei last Friday got to play with kids of Creative thinkers courtesy of Nad and Ms D..haha..love the kid..this time round we never handle the graduation kids like last year..we took charge of the step 2 kids..met future brighter kids like Nakeisha ★ ★ ★ (with me in the pict)...well maybe i should change career and be a pre-school teacher....cool...Alright i'hv got to go..anyway will try to update frequently...

padang trip

2008-11-09T01:31:00.002+08:00

Im truely exhausted...im trying my best to complete my psy project and the lack of sleep is turning me cranky all the time,neverless...im striving hard to do my best and enjoy the tiny winne moment with the class especially the cliques...yeah..love u guys..

Anyway kind of jam of what to blog about but hei good events keeps coming my way,,for example yesterday outing and the padang(cool or wat)...was magnificient..spend most of my time with the cliques...and not too forget the cam-whorring plus having too take picts wit J.T..(JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE..NOTJoanna tang)....she our CA Whom likes to nag...but neverless love the care and concern by her...enough said..hei a big thanks to Hazwan and douglas for joining with the cliques yesterday..u guys are the funniest chap to be around with..

And lastly wanna wish my good friend Hyrul all the best in your 1 month trip to tanah cuci Mecca this saturday..aku akan sentiase mendoakan keselamatan kau...amin..

Fly...

2008-11-06T17:18:00.003+08:00

Finally..school ends early today..however its like so crappy when all we do today in class was to sleep,talk,serve the net...blah.. the whole day was CDP lesson..like who cares... and like most of my friends were like cranky and emo..WTF..well today was BH2 class test and its like super tricky the MCQ...i was like if only i would pay attention during Ms Lim classes..ahhh..no point thinking about it..its over and done so all i have to do is pray...

2.2 in-campus its about to end and i could feel the intense stress..too many projects to do upon rushing through mitting the date line..am just starting through Psychiatric project after Mdm Mages told me that she discourage me to do the topic that i intent to do..so its like back to square 1...whatever..Haix..If only i could fly..FLY

Reflection on a fine day

2008-10-31T18:10:00.003+08:00

Today kinda a reflective day for me..seems as if the world is gonna end soon...didnt go school today..went for my N.S check up today..and wondering is my life gonna be in deep shit coz NS is my greatest enemy now..im preparing for the worst considering i got Pes A..Damn was hoping i got some unknown cardiac illness to be classified as Pes E(crazy me)..well lets not be negative alrite???

While walking and suddenly remembered that 2day is Friday...and decided to go solat Jumaat alone..since its been a long time i performed the solat jumaat....so went to Masjid Muhajidin at Queenstown...i took the opportunity to Doa...i wont tell u what is it but yeah hopefully my prayers will be answer..

I decided to go Vivo ALONE since Hazwan was telling me that he went there yesterday..i got the urge to shop but...never mind..save the money for some important things....

Im getting all stress up..lots of project will be due next week or so..I havent really touch on Psychiatric and BH2...Well what to do???Lecturers have been bombing us projects after another..wanting us to prepare for the working world...wait till they make us fall for depression..(hope not)..

Well cant wait for this Sun Big Walk..going with my Badots society gang...and yup plus the 7 november healthy lifestyle outing with the classmates..till then i update again alrite..take care readers..

Finally

2008-10-28T19:56:00.002+08:00

AHHH.....fINALLy....Updating my blog..haha..updating have been a chore..so maybe this free time(as iF...)..Will got me o my feet and think of what to post..anyway life have been flying past like nobody business and there goes my Anxiety plus-plus....Raye 08 is about to end in a few days time and how nice im able to spend the raye with my love one including My o4 AND my Nursing Cliques.....U guys really make my life in ITE a wonderful one..come to think of it we are only left with 4 weeks of in-campus...so we better cherish the friendship that we built a year ago..

ok see i got to go...ill update again alright...Got to study for my Psychistric before i get cranky...see u

Pain PLEASE GO AWAY

2008-10-14T20:06:00.002+08:00

School have just started and i seriously hate school..lesons have been such a bore and the only lesson im able to asorbed is Mrs Tang lessons...and Psychiatric is driving me nuts considering Mdm Mages is the Lecturer...gosh..and i hate the fact that she cant even pronounce my name correctly..

My immune systems is low and i tend to get sick easily...and its been a week since this mysterious illness have been bugging me..i get chest pain easily...and its the pain of anxiety or what malay says "sebak dada"..."YA ALLAH TERANGLAH DADA KU YA ALLAH"...And its been hindering my sleep and im having insomia draging myself of bed every morning and having to on the bus on the hour journey to school...Thoughts been through my mind..."Panjangkanlah umurku YA ALLAH"....I HAVE BEEN THINKING TOO MUCH ABOUT LIFE AND AFTER LIFE...mom says i'hv been thinking too much...which i think i have.....to those reading this do pray for me...

And yup..i am always thinking of U..

wHAT IF....??

2008-10-05T15:23:00.004+08:00

My fellows BardotZ society..Me,Ham,Sya,Rip

Haha...my blog begining to rot..hahaha..its just that my life have been quite a dull and nothing to be excited about...except for the mess im creating..and i done want to bored u with my adi-adi-ya..stupid story on where i go or what i bought..........

The Holy Month of Ramadan have just ended..and im sure its been a good month for us muslims right??so its the month of Shawal....yess..but i kind of like not looking foward like what i did in my previous years coz im 20 this year and getting "collection"is a past now and its up to families to give me...haix...and the worse thing is that my aunt said which department i was working in...???i was like..huh???im still a student nurse...what the hell..and and what car i am driving..im like for goodness sake..OMG..

Anyway my same old insomia came again and its so frustrating...and my anxiety level is so high now..and i kept having nightmares which seems to become a norm now...i just pray to god that none of my nightmares will all come true...maybe i reflect too much..about who i am????what the future holds for me in years to come..or if theres really the right one is out there...or am i destined to be enjoy love from afar and yet envy the love of others..if only....

IF I ever told u,would our friendship comes to an end

would u be EVEN classified as my FRIEND

Shuld i tell u???

or face the WORSE CONSEQUENCES

If only you'd look through my smile

And saw that my love for you was in deniaL

Some knew whats running through my head

But one question, "do you?"

You can make me smile with just one hi

And make me feel sad with that same goodbye

My stomach gets those silly butterflies

When ever i look deep into your eyes

For when we go our separate ways,

These are of course my sadder days,

For not being your friend is the worst thought of all,

It makes my heart just sink and fall

Well that's all that the heart has got to say

But one thing for sure

That you will at least be my friend

Course a friend stays forever

MEMORIES...

2008-09-25T13:45:00.008+08:00

Tuesday 23th September..our big bro(i tink??) Sufyanjust turned 21...so yeah..we celebrated his birthday as well as break fast at his place..scarry sia...so many makcik and pakcik and saudare..but cool..love the food...soup tulang plus all the finger food..Nyee...im fasting alright!!!and i was made to karaoke...which i did!!!damn u farhan...u escape!!!And YES!!!the number of times i spend with the cliques is the time i forgot all my trouble away..L.O.V.E u guys always...

Slept at 3 yesterday and waking up @ 4 for sahur yesterday...coz here is what happen yesterday...was clearing up the store room yesterday which has not been cleared like a decade ago...and i told mom to clear EVERYTHING!!!! and we always fought when she insists of keeping all the junks which is not even considered as GOLD!!!DAMN!!!and its like me and Mom clearing the store while the rest just stood and watch..maybe the know its impossible to clear the store and with Mom trying to save as much stuff as she can seems....haix (NO COMMENTS)..but yeah trying to prove critics wrong that i can clear the stuff in the store room..(actually its seems like its back to square 1)but its OK..after blogging its back to clearing up AGAIN..pARt 2....

But hei here its what i found...the documents in which im born at.. TOA PAYAH HOSPITAL..cool...but its no longer exist..now its known as CGH...AND my Childhood photos..i really miss the childhood days..we were really living in a terrible conditions but yet there was'nt an inch of worry of stress..HAPPINESS..is the word..and to imagine i played together with my siblings seems WOW....I WANT THAT MOMENT BACK!!!!...But haix i guess the we all grew up too fast....

THE PLACE I WAS BORN:TPH...NOW KNOWN AS CGH
YUP..THATS ME!!!IM BLUE WITH MY SIBLINGS...AND CUTE ..LOVE MY SKIN COLOUR

Saturday outing

2008-09-22T11:55:00.008+08:00

ME,DAYAH,SHAFIQ
O4 W/O NINIE

IM SO BORED NOW..COZ IM WANTING TO GO OUT BUT I AINT GOT NO PLANS..
hmm..ok im kinda blank of what to blog but here goes...

Was feeling all bored last saturday..Mom promise me to clear the store room that has been cluttered for a decade i guess..but the plan changed when aunt called to go geylang..i was totally pissed of.."aku da smagat ni nak kemas rumah"..damn...told mom not to go but she insists on going..i told Sis..and guess what???she agreed with mom.."laaa...kasilah mak enjoy sikit"..i was bloody pissed off...so when Aunt arrived, i was pissed that i refused to talk to her...and she said.
Aunt:lan skarang pat hospital ane??msh pat TTSH??
Me:skola.....
Aunt:lan nari buke ane??luar ke uma??
Me:uma..
Aunt:nanti lau sempat kiter teman lan..buke pat uma..
Me:wateva...

To add salt to the wound,sis buke pat luar ngan husband dier..itu pasal dier not on my side..WTF..I was angry...in which means i have to buke alone at home...when they are out enjoying themself!!!then mom said "kau ikutkan sangat perasaan kau tu".

I text dayah who offered to be my listening ear..1st my plans to buke puase with my friends cancel..then kemas store pon cancel..then kene buke sorang pat umah...haix..Then Dayah text me..eh nak buke pat geylang ngan Shafiq..then i said..OF COZ!!SO i left the house..i look back and tell myself im gona enjoy myself to the fullest...and so i did..

Met Shafiq and firr..pat Teh Tarik Eating house for Buke..then while waiting for buke,we notice that there's this Nenek whose Children and grandchildren left her in the crowd and walk without waiting for her..please..she's an elderly..walk beside her or hold her hands la...gundu..kesian kan..tercarik2 anak ngan cucu dier..plus its goin to buke..WTF..we just direct her to the direction that her cucu and anak were...

We met Jamal there and im glad he is always there whenever he asked to be met...and then met Era and her friends..wow..her friens jambu la seh..haha..and Jamal ngan Era da cam kenal lame seh..and yepp..i enjoy myself...but Mom..im sorry for being rude when u made a point to be home for buke and bought my favourite air katira,otak2 and roti boyan when i was'nt even at home...

yup.....i realised my mistake!!!

random entry

2008-09-18T13:28:00.002+08:00

ok another random entery here.well cause everytime im on the blogspot,i just go speechless..well maybe life isnt as enjoying i expected...school out for the next 2 days and im rotting to death...and the more bored i am the more wildest thoughts came it...maybe im a reflective person as per what ms wong said...well thats life..full of ups and down and before u knew it,your life will be a life lessons depend on how u take a look at....

Have u somethimes blame faith or even the people around u on how u turn out today???well i did..i tend to compare...why wasnt my life turn out great like some of my friends are??or if my parents were living in a big house or are earning more...or if my dad were.....(ok i dont really wana eloborate more)....BUT then again is the grass greener over the other side or am i just colour blind....well what i hope i wont be suffering the same faith as i am now when i grow up..i wanna give the best for myself and my future family...

BCLS..IM A LIFE SAVER NOW

2008-09-17T11:15:00.005+08:00

For the past 2 weeks have been a real buzy with endless mental stress..well maybe its the fasting month where the real test of hardship begins.Been under the weather for almost a week now and till now the cough and flu just wont go away...haix

Just ended my BCLS and its a relief..at last...can u imagine.... 4 practical assessment in a day..

Infant foreign body airway obstruction,Infant CPR,Adult chocking..concious to unconcious..

My mind just could not absorb anymore by i knew i had to do it since the i need a proper cert for that...and i made it...alhamdulillah..

Day 2...the moment everyone was waiting for..the One Man CPR..the grade that will determine our PCB marks...and sad to say i screw up in my compressions and had to retake the test again..in other words i could have 50% of my marks..seriously i feel dissapointed with myself..the nerves got a better of me..AND also i have to retake my theory...gosh..luckly i made it the 2nd attempt..as per my One Man CPR..i made it too for my 2nd attempt..thanks to Mdm Uma cause she made me calm down and i did well...and gosh..till now my wrist and back are still hurting from all the compressions...let me recap..(1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 5 and 1 and 2....arhhhh..watever..its over and done with)

After the BCLS..went and chill out with Nad,Sya,Shif,Han and NadiaKenet..went to break-fast at geylang after a hard day..we need rewards right???it was fun...hanging out with the cliques can never be boring...its the stressful week i can never forget....

IM SICK

2008-09-10T12:17:00.003+08:00

School out for me today....im having a fever,a cough,flu,sore throat..haix....and this is the 1st time i skipped school in my 1 year plus in this nursing course...and im so desprate to get on my feet to study..i dont want to miss lessons too much..but on the other hand i guess i hav not had enough rest for a very long time....maybe i push my body to the limit..

Here's what happen yesterday....was feeling sick and all...yet i went to school..and when school was done...i headed to tampines polyclinic with the cliques....and on the way home i realised that i did not get my mc chop...and i make a turn and DROP MY MEDICATION...AND THE BOTTLE OF COUGH SYRUP SHATTED...AND Farhan picked it up for me and he ACCEDENTLY THREW AWAY MY FLU TABLETS.....

Moral of the story...keep your medication plastic inside your bag...

1st day of 2.2

2008-09-08T15:40:00.005+08:00

First day of school...the start of 2.2...ahhhhh....too many things running onto my mind... her..,BCLS,GPA,....Elective,..PCB..,what to do upon graduation???....And so on and so forth...really..time is really running out as the days i spend with my friends which i bonded a year ago seems numbered...think hard and think twice and i always end up in square one....

Yesterday insomia got me all tired and the flu and sore throat is killing me..and before i knew it,it was time to sahur..(pre dawn meal)...and yeah it was time for school which i dread..and another attempt to get a short nap in the bus fail..damn...and soon...the journey began with the brightly smiles of my classmates...JR0704C.....love u all...and there goes our new class advisors..Mrs Joanna Tang....Cool..the lady who got me to love Bio...and with her around..no doubt i will love PCB too,,so theres no reason i cant score for the subject..i can do it...as per BCLS...i must not be nervous...plus with Mrs Tang going through the theories of BCLS,i got a clearer picture of what to expect..and insyallah i can do it di bulan yang mulia ini...

ok now..im so thirsty..3 more hours to break fast...and im gonna sleep in the mean time..take care

End of 2.1 attachment

2008-09-06T11:19:00.002+08:00

9 weeks have passed and attachments have just ended and im having a mix feeling about it..proud to say that i feel much more closer with my cp mates compare to the last attachments..yeah..and sad to say that in campus is going to make me stess up all over again and i have to adapt to my life all over again....and yeah i really think attachments is rather fun than in campus..and i'hv change my blogskin thanks to my dearest friend and my cp mate...(go figure)who stayed out all night even after her afternoon shift just to get it possible..so i really appreciate it...

End of IMH posting

2008-08-30T11:12:00.004+08:00

Sometimes in this world whatever u do and no matter how hard u tried people will still pick u for all sorts of negative reasons jus to pull u down...life seems unfair at at times but u still have to pull urself together...hmm....

I have just ended my 2 weeks of IMH posting @ ward 65 that changed my mindset about the patients..cant imagine life without you love ones by yourside to give u the emotional support that u need..thats what happen to most of them...rejected by their families....even if u tell me, i'll definately say...no matter wat they are still your flesh and blood...

My ward has a flu outbreak and we students are co-called ban from a A ward...damn it..i miss my my so and so....no more ball games and all the colouring...as most of my patients are ADL independent...for the B side lots of nursing care which im depriving of...that came to and advantage that i was motivate to do showers and stuff...coz guess who step in????the ONE that strike terror in our hearts..MDM Phyllis Tan....and lucky for me i was doing work..unlike some of my friends who "kena saman"by her for just standing around...and she came a couple of times...n yesterday last day was the best as Wendy and I deciced to accompany SyahidaH Aziz to the A side as she had a flu...so sister told her she does not want the B side to get infected... so the 3 of us was wearing the mask for the entire day..isolation protocol..and there i goes..reunited with my patients from A side......yippy...and to look back i miss my patients and hmm.. maybe i should work there..well only time will tell...

I got my results and i definately score an B coz my Lecturer did not telly the whole marks...gosh...there goes my A....never mind i still got my 2.2...Anyway BCLS Is coming soon...hope i score well..okey readers enjoy the weekends coz mine will be a hectic one...

Ndp appreciation

2008-08-26T10:13:00.010+08:00

Last saturday was our NDP appreciation tea where i reunite with the be-loved ndp motivators especially my cluster B(above pict)..yeah..though it was raining heavily,we manage toreach there on time...great performance and all..but its a pity coz 3 of my mentors were not there..and the best thing is that we all got to dress up...Right after the show,we went to watch the fireworks..can u imagine 20 odd people made up of the motivators walking all together in abig group..???and anyway watching the fireworks without my 04 Seems meaningless...as Ninie and Jamal join us soon after....anyway i'hv posted a few picts for all to view..and till now im glad im part of NDP 2008 Ninie and me...
The one im closer with..
The 5 stars

"Mummy"Elizabeth,dayah and me

A part of 04...dayah

and the award goes to ME!!!!

They not crazy..just a little unwell..(I KNOW)

2008-08-21T17:20:00.002+08:00

hhhhhhhaaa.........damn it..my favourite N676 handphone died on me...shitty..my saved msg from lots of people including mummys newyear resolution that i promise to kept are all gone.and...and msges from people whom i look up in life all all GONE!!!!DAMN IT!!!!

The week i spent at IMH really open up my mind whom society describe them as ''crazy''..hmm..mine is a cronic ward so they are so-called permanent resident..they are not at crazy as u expect them to be..sometimes i really wonder why they stayed there in the 1st place..as most of them are being rejected by their families,the ward is their second home..and i simply love interacting with them...make them feel love that they have lost over the years..or decade..thoughts of working there comes to mind but the thing is,i'll will definately lose all my skills...haix im still clueless..

Today i got my log book from my cp lecturer Mdm Ang...yes!!!!She really gave me a good comment..so much better then the one given by Mdm Ng..yeah..i did well....looking back i was on the verge of giving up when Mdm Ng was in charge..But still Im thankful for Mdm Ng for believing in me..and today we learn more about Mdm Ang today...anyway tomorrow is Sim training that i dread the most gonna hit the books later on...

Cant Wait for this Saturday..NDP Appreciation Nite...I'll reunite with my motivators...YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!hopefully theres a dance floor for us to battle...Watch Out Janice and gang,we sure to beat u again..hahaha...anyway u guys rocks!!!

Anyway i'll update again...once again enjoy reading people!!!Peace Out

WTF

2008-08-18T17:27:00.003+08:00

I just got back from work and im all so worn out to the max..its the last lap of attachment..3 weeks to go and what the hell..im so tired and defeated most of the time..well sad to say that IMH was surprisingly................BORING..BORING TO THE MAX

Well..thats to the chicken pox outbreak the ward im supposed to be attached that we were give a new ward..a chronic psychoG ward...had i had enough of amk already..and the ward stinks like hell and we were so lost not knowing what to do expect for the Bingo game we had...the one funny thing is that one Apek wes like tell me abt the sexual exprience..and and the 69 position he had..so i kinda of dont want to get him arouse for no reason....

And the food was nice but super x...and we ate in groups when we suppose to ate with the group with Mdm Ang..Poor her..always eating wholemeal bread...haix..but she kinda boring to a certain extend..haha..and most of us started to appreciate Mdm Ng coz of the rapport she made with us..maybe i guess Mdm Ang should reach more to us...but still im okey with her as my CP lecturer..

okey il update more..see u soon..readers

ROTTING

2008-08-16T11:35:00.003+08:00

I'm rotting to death now..its Saturday now in which i usually am geared up to mit my friends for the NDP shows and its seem that im back to square 1 =(...

Anyway im supposed to mit Nad and Sya later @ 1pm @ simei and i have not even prepared yet..what the hell...!!!having the emo kinda of thing since yesterday and i dont really know why???wanna go shopping for next saturday event but im clueless of what to wear???any idea people...???hmmm....

okey i guess this short entry fills the loneliness which is beyond recognition...cant think of anything to write..il update soon on the IMH posting...

Ps:i dont know if its a prank or what...but whatever it is if u really exists,just come forward and tell yourself who u are..i dont mind getting to know u too...(im refering to the one in my tagboard)

Friends are part of our life journey.......

LIFE OF UPS AND DOWN

2008-08-15T17:21:00.005+08:00

Haha...things have been way to rough to handle at times plus the workload have been inconsistance at times especially today...gosh..hmm i was left to sponge 3 patient and bring a patient to the toilet..thats why i hate to work with THAT AN...always M.I.A....and the pakcik pull out the cannula leaving me to clean and change his baju and bed sheet...BUT hei thanks to my incredible good friend Izfa for helping me..u have been a good help and a good listening..(relex pal..we on the same boat)

Like i wonder why people gossip most of the time and hate other people before they judge themself and wonder if actually people like them...look!!!i dont care if u people hate me or despise me for whatever reasons..just dont judge me if u dont know the real me or hear stuff from other people that is way untrue...and i hate pretenders...(point 3rd middle finger)

Im glad i have finish 75% of my skills within this 3weeks...i dont have to run around looking for skills to assess by Mdm Ang..after all i suffer under the hands of Mdm Ng when she's around...and hopefully i score for this posting as well...

About my cP lecturer Mdm Ang:Easy to get signature

Next Week is the week that i'hv been waiting for..IMH...
YES!!!!!im gonna see AMS patients as well as dance to their music if its permits....haa..and im glad im on the same shif as my "Big bro"Syahidah Aziz..together with "Lil sister"Ramlan,we gonna rock the ward and dream big yet again just like "I am legend"..

okey im still thinking about tomorrow on how to spend my boring weekends again coz im having post NDP syndrom..and i got nothing to look forward to Saturday anymore....and i definately miss my cluster,new found friends and and and my Michelle Chong.....hehehe

NDP 08 ROX

2008-08-13T16:49:00.004+08:00

My Saturdays spent with the awsome people as the Ndp motivator 08 have just ended..its a sweet memories that i had which is beyond explanation...i cant believe that we started training since mid feb and time really flies and the next thing its over and done with..my Saturdays will not be the same again...hmmm...and i will definately join again next year...and yes i will...so this time il be a senior..hahaha..hmm...i cant wait for the appreciation nite...il reunite with the motivators and hopefully theres a dance floor for us in our so called rematch with the girls from cluster A.hahaha..

Gosh..i fell in love with juggling the moment i started to pick up the skills..its seems difficult but its actually quite easy if u put your heart and soul into it..like Jason Garfield said "its only a ball"..yup i gain a skill from joining the motivator..ang i love my juggling gang..Razman,Farhana,Dayah and Shafiq...

Lastly I LOVE CLUSTER B...U GUYS HAVE MADE MY NDP JOURNEY A WONDERFUL ONE...GOD BLESS U ALL..SEE U GUYS ON THE 23TH....

Gay like....../i dreamt of her

2008-08-03T15:34:00.008+08:00

Yesterday was the NDP preview and it was definately great coz this time the audience are adults compaired to the normal primary 5 kids during the N.E show...buts theres a twist yesterday when our tops were change to the freaking v neck that were so uncool and most of us complain we look like gays...yukss..i still prefer the old outfit...hope the organizers will change their minds about the outfits...neverless i enjoy yesterday show till my voice is all sore from yesterday shoutings...i just cant wait for next week NDP actual day after months of preparation..im really am proud of being an NDP motivator...

Yesterday lack of sleep due to the lemon tea i drank makes me tired today but the dream that i had stills linger in my mind till now and hope the dream that i had will be in my dreams every night..i cant explain why or how the dream is like but i dream that i was approach by this "mn"and we had behave like lovers...and she declare her love for me...strange but true...if its a sign that im miting someone like her soon..i'll gladly accept it..however the dream hang there when we were about to take the next step...i hope the dream continues tonight....

Happy nurses day..with love

2008-08-02T10:33:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a special day for us nurses cos its Nurses Day...its kinda cool coz being the april intake we got to experience nurses day being celebrated in the hospital itself rather then in the school..hei but yesterday was a fun one coz the 14 of us were on morning shif.yes!!!cant wait to get out of the ward...really i dont enjoy that posting..but neverless i love my patients plus its nearer to my home..home-sweet -home AMK...

Yesterday was the last day of our C.P lecturer Mdm Emily Ng to some of us coz the some of us are having our sim training this monday..as it was nurses day and to thank our C.P lecturer we gave her a bag,a cake and our self -written note...its a bit sad to see her go...when come to think of it,i was glad that she was our CP lecturer...she is kinda nice in that sense though the nerves kills me at times in front of her...well she is fair to have graded us with good grades though i was expecting a just pass grade...i hope to do well for next week surgical posting under the guidence of my new c.p lecturer..im aim to do even better then my medical posting...

After my shift yesterday,i meet up with my old pals whom i miss dearly...we really had a lot to catch up and we were like talking everything under the sun..we then chill @ the esplanade before we headed back home..like i said to u guys before..i never trade anyone for u guys...

radom.....

2008-07-31T19:07:00.003+08:00

HELLO THERE...kinda in deep thoughts now..really cant wait for this Saturday NDP preview...ps...my stupid face was on advertisement on suria..."untuk Mu"..this Sun..if u guys notice la.. taking a pict with Huda Ali..when clearly im not a big fan of her...sori...hei Michelle Chong is still the best..and i got my wish..my ''Andreana WOW''..HEHE...

I Really Miss the bunch of wackys JR0704C...they are the best compaired to my C.p group..(DTA)...lesson learnt and plastics were uncovered.... but they are okey for this posting..im begining to open up more..whatever the outcome is..i got no regrets coz i tried my best..im once bitten twice shy..so im taking xtra precaution..no offence...just today me and rajes were like reflecting our moments in class...the best that we ever had...and i love the cliques....love and forever...

Random ACTS and THOUGHTS

2008-07-29T16:08:00.003+08:00

Hello people just got back from morning shif and im truely exhausted but neverless im trying my best to keep up to my blog..hee..well as i reflect my 2 weeks posting at AMK hospital,what do i really achieved??truely i dont know..haha..its been like boring in that sense..coz we dont really help much..just helping here and there..coz patients are there for rehab and we have to train to achieve their ADL..cant wait for this friday..our last day there..plus our group wanna plan something for our cp lecturer-mdm emily ng....since her last day is on monday and some of us are having our SIM training..gosh..i really hate SIM training coz the lecturer are so mean at times..and u really need to know your stuff before going there...

Something funny happened to me in the ward just now..theres this patient daughter who is kinda mentally challenge or should i say down syndrom was like asking for my autograph coz she kinda interested in me..hahaa..my group mates was like teasing me...its funny la..but its okey..coz we cant really pull the mentally disable from the society..and guessnwhat i sign in the paper???''To Fatimah :JOKER..why so serious??''..i know its crap la..but for the fun of it..

Was reading Farhan's blog and the love for SNBM is still there..and i really look up to his persistance..isnt a true loving guy suppose to be like him????or should i say reality hurts badly when it wasnt meant to be???just a slap on the face wont move an inch???but then again why persistance dont really move a person when sincerity is there??maybe love is kinda complicated when u keep searching silently...be patient love will come naturally...Neverless if Farhan really move SNBM one thing for sure,fairytales do happen and it is something U should be proud of..As for me,the saying still stands strong..."if there comes a day we cant be together,keep me in your heart,i'll stay there forever...

What a weekend!!!!!

2008-07-27T13:53:00.004+08:00

Hello Readers..as u all reading this im doing my case study as per my lecturer...haix..seriously im not into case study as it requires you to do research...furthermore my lecturer kept asking us indepth..linkage to other theories...well maybe thats how learning should be..nevermind..hei but thanks to her we kinda completed nearing 75% of our skills..

I just got reminded today is big bro birthday..which also reminded me of the so-called tragedy that happened to me last year during c.p 1.1...where i got splash urine from a HI-5 patient...its been one year since it happen and thank god im still standing and staying in this course.Thanks to the concerned that i got from all my previous lecturer..i truely appreciate it..

Yesterday was truely awsome..1st thing it was Nurses day celebration and seeing how we nurses have our own celebration plus all the talented nurses performing makes me wanna perform too..im really proud to be a nurse and hope that i will be a competent nurse soon..

After Nurses day..me Nadia,fatin and Nana went to East Point where i accompany Nad and Fatin to get their slippers before we headed to Sentosa with the rest of Cluster A.B, and C...It was a truely enjoyable coz we played games where we had to find items to the extend of asking the hot babes wherether the bikini they are wearing is the brand roxy..cool...i just love being an NDP motivator...alright Readers got to go complete my case study..hope to see u soon...enjoy

what a ride

2008-07-23T18:02:00.003+08:00

us...@ ward 5D

2 weeks have passed and i have ended my medical posting...its great yet stressful at times..and i really the ward..Ward 5D..The 3rd time we been to that ward since our 1.1..its a psychiatric ward..full of crazy AMS patients..we have already have a view of the mini IMH..cool ha??and this time i think i got well with my workmates though i always know how ''Plastic'' they can be...i dont give a shit anymore..On my last day at the ward..its only the 4 of us..me,Rajes,Than dar and Izfa..with the exception of than dar,the 3 of us slack..luckly theres Euna and Vicky or its gonna be a boring day..AN Qin Lan gave a choclates.cool..by the last hour,we slack with Vicky and Euna and took photos and all the crazy jokes

Im now being attached at AMK hospital..that is super boring..yet lots of cracking to be done..case study and all that stuff and skills to read up before my C.P teacher becomes a gorilla..got a chat with her just now and its like 40 minutes like that..wah...so scary that i broke my 2nd hand watch..and i received my log book..and i............(shhhhh)

Yesterday was Arief birthday and me,ernie,dayah,khai,yiid,syarip aka nya was there to celebrate the moment with him..Happy Birthday Bro!!..we then bought for him a cake from polar and we headed to AMK hub to watch ''Batman-The Dark Night''..and guess what?i fall asleep @ the begining of the movie..hei im so tired after work ok???its was a nice one..especially joker.(R.I.P Heath ledger)..the most coincident,Wendy watch the show too yesterday and we were like bragging to Shahidah Aziz about which makes her wanna watch it today..hei and i got chills the moment Wendy sang during break time..gonna look forward for her performance this saturday.

Hei..this saturday theres no NdP show and we off to Sentosa....and Sufyian text me this morning for a gathering this Saturday..how??i really miss them..every moment..lets see how???HEI!!! I TOOK PICTURES WITH MICHELLE CHONG AND HUDA ALI. during the N.E Shows..cool..they both look hot and pretty..amazing..!!!

I DIED AT THE HANDS OF EMILY ROSE

2008-07-17T20:42:00.004+08:00

Haix..what a life today..miss my previous lecturer..today got a big lecture and scolding one corner thanks to the inability to control my nerves..and my stupid patient who thought he knows bests..and i was making a fool of myself infront of the patient and there she was shouting at me.."do u know im very particular when doing the CLC...''..That was what she said to me..and io was like..yayaya.... and i told her that she is fierce to me..well that what everyone said about her..maybe i was at fault too..coz if i know my stuff,she wont really nag..i just hope my I/V will get the competency coz the date..if i got the competency which means im left with little skills to do at ward 12D..then can slack...hahaha..and i cant wait for her departure..im waiting for the new lecturer to take over..hope she is nice..super nice like my previous lecturers...

Tomorrow is my last day in ward 5D..Love the ward..

On Sunday will be miting my cliques hopefully for a so called reunion..cool ..i really miss them lots..my pillar of strength..and i really hope our friendship will be strong as ever..

OF COZ I MISS MY O4 TOO..HAHA..LOST CONTACT FOR THE TIME BEING..let me describe them..(picts of them on my friendster)

Ninie-The most impulsive among the 4..have her own say n stand which really hard to defeat..neverless caring and always out there looking for the meaning of love..chill gal..love will find u..thousand times better them HIM.

Dayah-The one person im always in touch with and we will meet every Saturday for our NDP..she's the soft one at heart and will always confine in me...Stay strong always..coz your a prodigy..always remember that..

Jamal-The next impulsive one whom i see lots of changes since our secondary days..from the hair to the look...n personality..kinda look up to him at times for his willingness to work hard till he achieve to get to poly..go!!hmm and the one always looking for the gals with the good look..hope that one day u find the right one with the good heart..

ORIGINAL 4...Ramlan,Jamal,Ninie,Dayah

mad rush..

2008-07-15T18:05:00.003+08:00

HEI...im back blogging..its been away for a while now..okey im missing blogging too..

As im typing now,im buzying with attachments and all..gosh this is the time which i really hate..especially having my group around n my lecturer whom i really having a hard time adapting too..lets face it..i do admit,im slowler then others,but im willing to try my best.i cant do skills rushing myself..i need to chill and think before i act to my procedure..and competency is really hard one coz i wen i stood infront of her..i gott chillls and goosebumps..shes nice and all but haix..why did i set a high expectation for myself in the 1st place..im going to pull up my socks and try...ok i dont really wanna mourn n sulk about the unhappy stuff..hei @ least im back in 5D my favourite ward..kinda funny though coz thats the only medical ward we have gone to since 1.1...so they watch us grow...cool huh?

NDP 08 is just around the corner and im so excited...but the attachments n coming back for practise really tires me especially when the day before is afternoon shif..gosh..anyway i will update u more..gonna yawn soon..

im calling out on u

2008-07-06T12:48:00.005+08:00

Here i am again ..facing the corners of my 4 walls waiting for the time to pass slowly before i knew its my dooms day.. An intelligent friend of mine onces said "why stress over a thing that is already going to happen?''..that is going to stay with me as long as i can remembered..n yes..tomorrow is the start of my attachment..good luck..

BPS CONCERT

HAHA..The concert was awsome coz i really miss those times i was playing for the band..guess i really love the band music..and hei they feature my face on the screen..myself playing the trumpet..cool..n its so nice to see all my friends and juniors..i miss them...

NDP N.E SHOW 1

The show was awsome...love the costume and all..just take a love at it and we really look cool in it..no doubt about that..n i love motivating the crowd though i was like f*** la..sing ..clap.. and all they could do is to ''excuse me,u are blocking my way''..what the hell??but its a learning journey for me as i could try to improve my way of motivating all all..and singing all the singapore medly songs really perks and hyp me up..and the constant girlish shouting btw me n Angela really funny..gosh its seriously fun..n yup..Orange and Green came to the show and watch me perform the dance..haha..

MISSING THAT SOMEONE

I really miss that someone who i did not really keep in touch with.. in which to me its a long time..but its only 2 wks since there wasnt any sms...well sometimes i really have to learn to let go of things that will not work out in the end...damn...n im still waiting n hope that one day you shall miss me..(which i doubt so)

A soon NEW JOURNEY..

2008-07-04T10:36:00.004+08:00

As i began a soon new chapter in life yet again,i came to realise that this is what i actually want in life...well maybe not..its too much for me at times but yup a path that i choose in the first place..yup..A nurse.

This is going to be my last weekday resting like a log..how time flies in a flash and my 1 month of holidays has just ended and new challenges will arrise..psst..i hv yet to study..(go figure)

Yesterday was another of those of interact general meetings preparing for the installation nights..hei..Hamli join us..cool..at least im not the onli guy in the comm service..then me,sya,nad and Ham went to beach rd where we ate soup tulang plus our various nasi ayam..then Sufyan join us as usual..always sacrifice his time for us before going back to his camp

Today im going to to my BPS Band concert..gosh.i really miss those times in which we played various songs from mystical to pop..jass..cool..n i definately miss playing my trumpet despite being so ''karat''..never mind..my glorious days seems over..

okey il update u on the concert band which i will attend this evening..oh ya plus my NDP Show for tomorrow..take care fellow bloggers

AHHH...STOP THE FREAKING TIME

2008-07-01T11:17:00.003+08:00

What a day to start today..i so sick and having a terrible flu n headache when attachment will start next week..in which means i cant fall sick as i often do..what to do..thats life..

Hmm..yesterday was a great day in which i spent my time yet again with my besttie...Sya n Nad(HAIX..me the onli guy.. Because of u Farhan..i hate to endure the enless window shopping of the girls..) which was later join by Sufi..d N.S guy which i got the most uphold respect for..i kind of unsure the different btw Hardy Boy n Sufyian..well only Nad knows the answer...hmmmm...(ok full stop..no more info )

Attachment will starts next week n i seriously having u difficult time opening my PCA Book to recap..haix..LAN...What is happening to u...u did well for in-campus..i dont want u slack when the attachment starts...DO YOUR BEST!!!!BE A COMPETENT AND INSPIRATIONAL NURSE!!

Come to think of it when the attachment starts..it means TIME MANAGEMENT..got to sleep early..rest as much as i can save my energy for every SATURDAY NDP SHOW...Ok..im gonna rest now..the headach is killing me

ALL GOOD THINGS MUST COME TO AN END

2008-06-26T12:12:00.004+08:00

ok..I guess the holidays are coming to an end and im really kinda of praying hard that i will concentrate full time revising my skills on the PCA book..gosh i cant imagaing CP is approaching real soon and there is lots of things we have to do this time ranging from the basic 1.1 skills to the current 2.1..n gosh..the "magical words" will rings again..."student..student"...Haix..its alwats the staff nurse ordering us again..but still thats the reason why we are called "ENROLLED OR ASSISTED NURSE"..Hence i plan to move on to a diploma level..well maybe after i completed my N.S...

Well my friends from SGH started theirs this week (poor guys)..gosh..mine will start on the 7th and i dont really looking forward for that.. i got Mdm Emilly Ng as my C.P lecture..she seems mean..n i got lots of stories i heard about her...but i shall not mention..ahhhh..cant believe this time dont get the "GEREK" onces....ranging from Mdm Yeow,Mdm Norliza and Ms Lang..they are like approachable...n theres no tension..but????...hmmm..never mind but at the end of the day its what we gain at the end of the posting..as a nurse..thus im gonna put effort on cp 2.1..

Yesterday was an OK one for me..had dinner with Nad and Sya @ beach road...n then we headed to arab street..n there i go..walking in front of Masjid Sultan n i feel guilty coz when azan ishak berkumandang i just feel the guilt and all i could do was solat for awhile before joining the gals..but what did i do..??i simply did not went in and solat..and i walk away toward Bugis Junction..well i just hear the seruan of Setan..

We then head to Bugis junction where the gals window shop..n i stood back..guess what they shop for???shoes..Bras..haiyo...n we still carry our our privet jokes.."right girlfreeend???"

EXAMS RESULTS ARE OUT

2008-06-25T12:22:00.006+08:00

Was all excited today coz when i woke up..whY???..just to check my resuts..i knew it...i told myself..days of endless nights..i give it my all..

and there i go..should i be happy or dissapoint...no doubt i aim for As for all my modules...haix..i think im a little dissapointed..yes i initially thought i could get As..and what did i got...????never mind at least i did not flunk..is over and done..Be glad that u dont have to repeat any module..be thankful that u got an A for your PCA..coz truefully PCA was really a hard one....so i guess u need to do well for Clinical..can someone please stop the time cos its really freaking me out!!!!!!

Well im gona work hard for my Clinical and im aiming an A again..n im gonna work hard for 2.2..

Hmm...just add a new song to my blog coz it really reminds me of my days @ MIX..my best job ever...so I wanna share it with u people...Enjoy!!!

AND IF YOUR GONE

2008-06-24T11:53:00.005+08:00

Gosh what a day it has been..im feeling under the weather since yesterday morning n till now my hands and feed are burning..im still considering if i should go for the dance practise today..

FOOD FEAST

When out with my pals yesterday....it started as a boring usual day...Lunch?????Mc Do...after the normal boring chat..we headed down to esplanade...gosh an weekday afternoon @ the esplanade..BORING....still nothing to do..we headed to get ice cream n some pretzel..the fun part is that we headed to coffee bean...me being so sick when to get a box of panadol extra and i got rip off it coz me around $5.90..what to do when my body kinda get hot...i cant imaging geting pyrexia...the last time was like sec 4...ok then we ordered spegitti..n some choclate drink n 2 cake @ half price..cool right..we were laughing @ all the stupid jokes since i wasnt much sober as i was sick...

i kinda feel disapoint....no..sad...ok i cant describe the feeling coz im missing that someone...who???no..no..my privert life is strictly confidential.so respect that..haix...never mind..let this feeling explode in me..

AND IF YOUR GONE

I'm gazing at the mess im going through,what a life..A lie so true its hurts to keep inside so listening up..i cannot live a day without you here by my side..nor can i stand to be within your sight..shun your lights.........

A Problem solved a problem will emerge,i'm entwined..confuse my heart is telling me to run,to where can i???is this the fate im destined to collide,must i try?A love i hv lost a love i'm trying to find,i run around..i hunger for your presence in my heart..for awhile ...i'll fade away when i feel the time is right

Today is a GIFT

2008-06-23T11:03:00.002+08:00

Today was supposed to an an interact general miting n some installation dance thingy..but screw it..coz im like having my frequent headache n my normal insomia..or "tido-tido ayam"..so i was like never mind my health is like kinda important..will be going out in a few hours time...

REST IN PEACE LOLA

Mummy text me n told me that her beloved lola(grandma in tagalog) passed away this morning..(R.i.p)..kinda feel sad for her though coz of the stories she shared with me..so sent my condolence n hope u be strong like i always known for who u are..

NDP MOTIVATOR

Went to my normal saturday routine for the NDP training and it was lots of fun with many crazy people and its was like 10 hours of training at d Marina Bay n hehe..we watch the whole show..cool right?????and i bump into my classmates..Rahmah,Sha Sha n Aini..they too are taking part in this year NDP..n tomorrow another training at Redhill to practise our dance..i guess our claster B must show the best Dance coz Verlin is our Mentor n we must not let her down..next Saturday is another round of training at training hope it wont be as sunny as last saturday..but still the fun is there..

BOWLING SESSION

Had a bowling session @ marina square with my besties..Nad,Small,Sya n Sufyian..yup Sufyian was there eventhough he had to return to camp the next day..so nice of him...Then we ate @ marina n we bump into Sakinah with the new hair extention..she look great though..she was with her friends n pal Fauzie laily..n the funny thing is that Sufyian was holding the DvD anugerah n he showed to Sakinah..Sakinah wanted to tell Fauzie but we were laughing and told her not to tell him..to save us..Malu say,,tak senonoh si Sufyian tu..

WICKED AURA BATUCADA

Then we had lots of fun dancing to the beats of some jAss.Regge,rock,saMba...To the sound of Batucada..@ the esplanade..with the exception of Nad..we dance like we were in the club..Sufyian skan like mad..like in a ska gig..the Wicked Aura wer awsome..Even Sya for the first time hearing about the band reali fall in love with them...

C.P IS COMING

This week is the last week before revision time..n i gonna aim for A Time n im gona do it no matter what people said about me..i dont give a shit..well if u dont like my face or change ur shif because of me..I DONT GIVE A SHIT...i dont hate u or dislike u coz its just not me coz i let it be..heard abt the saying "WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND"...

i'll pray for her health..dun worry

2008-06-20T12:17:00.004+08:00

ok.i guess life kinda get boring as days when by..sori just coz all i did was just stay @ home n rot till death..why cant my life be a smooth sailing..well my hp was all silent and no call nor sms either..cant help it coz we have been going out for the pass 3 wks.(right guys??)will be going to do my prayers in less than an hrs time n yup..will be miting my friends after that for lunch and all before hiting to my "daughter"home and chill..haix wat to do??she doesnt want to go out today??hmm..n yups that calls for the reunion of the o4 is guess???

mummy sms yesterday coz she going back to her country after 1plusplus year of not going back..dont worry mom..im sure with our prayers grandma will be alright.. yup..say hello to all the filipino for me ya??mabuhai...will miss u for sure...

ok..i cant update lots..got to shower now...yukks!!

WORDS OF WISDOM

2008-06-19T13:00:00.003+08:00

i'm rotting @ home..n i realli miss the time i spent my holidays working earning lots of money n all..n the more i stay @ home,the more i reflect upon myself on how f* my life could be @ times..if theres anthing i want in life is definately this..

TRUE HAPPINESS IN LIFE..SO I HOPE THE RIGHT ONE WILL KNOCK ON MY DOOR SOON...

TO BE A COMPETENT NURSE..THAT IS ALL IM ASKING FOR A CAREER..THAT HOLDS MY FUTURE BRIGHT

That is what i want in life...hopefully it will come true..god bless..

Here's a little something for those who are still searching like me..hopefuli u will be inspired

LOVE IS PASSION,OBSESSION.SOMEONE U CANT LIVE WITHOUT.IF U DONT START WITH THAT,WHAT ARE U GOING TO END UP WITH?FALL HEADS OVER HEELS.I SAY FIND SOMEONE U CAN LOVE LIKE CRAZY AND WHO WILL LOVE U THE SAME WAY BACK.AND HOW DO U WANT TO FIND HER?FORGET YOUR HEAD AND LISTEN TO YOUR HEART..-William parrish,politician

Random entry

2008-06-18T14:53:00.003+08:00

OK..i got half an hr to blog coz im miting Dayah,Arief n Syahiid later..we're going to Mustafa..i getting a new shades...maybe coz of the sunny weather which i pedict this saturday @ the floting platfom..this saturday NDP rehersals gonna be a tiring one..n yes we gonna watch the whole show...n i cant wait to Juggle coz i practise like mad..so i hope my hard work pays off..

Dayah has plan a re-union of the Original 4 to meet up.i realli miss them.i will mit dayah every saturday for the NDP rehersals but not Ninie and Jamal..Jamals has since be busy since entering NYP..Ninie???????Not to sure whats shes busy of..The o4 IS THE BEST FRIENS THAT I EVER HAD..we will make sure we mit frequently like we do except for this month..maybe coz me n Ninie got exams n stuff..

n gosh im gonna go back to C.P soon @ TTSH..n i realli cant imaging doing all the critical skills like I/V drip..subcutanous..gosh..hei but good thing im going back to ward 5D..love the staff there..but is onli like to weeks working @ the medical ward..before i proceed to KKH..for 2 weeks..that means i got 2 weeks to rush all my skill n haix..i cant imagine asking my CP lecture,mdm emily ng to escess my skills..she sound so strict unlike my other CP lecturer..well actuali the point is we dont realli have to be scared of lecturer escessing our skills coz if we know our staff,theres nothing to be afraid of...come on ramlan..u are onli left with 10 mths till graduation...better buck up!!!!!

see...in the mids of holidays,i still think of school..see..like what Miss wong said about me..im a reflective person..

LOVE IS IN THE AIR

2008-06-17T12:25:00.007+08:00

THE ZOO TRIP

I Went to the Zoo with my classmates last sat coz theres a red cross event going on.i was like so excited coz its my 1st time going to the zoo since primary school..Me,nad,sya,han,fara,daffy walked like nobody business..by the end of the trip nad n daffy "blanja" me BEN N JERRY ice-cream..cool isnt it.

K-BOX SESSION

Well went to thompson c.c with my ex-managers for a night to celebrate my advance birthday.its nice of them la..but trufully i did not really enjoy myself... its a long time since i saw alif n reali what a shock its has been...Hes with the long wig n all with the high heels shoes...well its hard to adapt la..but wen come to think of it..all the sacrifice and his kindness reali touch me n that reminds me of accept people for who they are...n respect them to the fullest coz they are able to protrays who they realli are...yen got drunk n its funny coz im always think of her as a strong n independent women..i then went home with mummy on the same cab n theres lots i reali wana catch up with her..well never mind..we each got our own life to lead now....cant depent on her on how i used to..yup i know u close into finding what u reali what in life..hope u find the happiness that u looking for..

GONNA MISS U SUFI

me,nad,sya n small wen to have ecp to so-called say good bye to sufyan coz hes goin to N.S the day after..we got a mini picnic n is so enjoyable coz we chat about lots of stuff n all n we reali sang our hearts out..in i realli enjoy that very day..n i remembered what sufyan says"why do u stress for things that is going to happen"its still rings in my mind...

oh ya gonna miss ABANG HALI who went off for N.S yesterday too...

THANKS I REALI APPRECIATE IT

To my cliques who wen to the extent to celebrate my bdae,i realli appreciate it...u guys reali make my journey in ITE a plesent one..gosh no words can describe how the wonderful feeling i had when i around u guys..sorry coz my enteries for this tittle is kinda short but i'll promise u guys that u all in my prayers in whatever i do..god bless..

IM MISSING MY 04 ON MY BDAY

i reali miss the time that we had together celebrating each and everyone of our birthday...u guys are the best n i hope that we could all mit up again..put all our activities aside n get together..i will always love u guys...

2008-06-17T12:25:00.000+08:00

zoo trip